My fears.. and digressed

My biggest fear in my life now.. is actually loneliness
So much has changed.. now i'm like all alone

Used to have someone to stick to me every single day and stuff, have to report where i am, what i am doing, and still end up seeing that person.. but yeah.. now.. its all me.. i eat my dinner alone.. i sleep alone on a king sized bed, and i have 2 overly committed friends whom i don really see unless in sch.. its like my 5-day week kinda friends..

i need to get a life.. i've out done myself that i finished a book in like 2 weeks.. record time...
and i cannot really find a book to read.. and yeah.. my friends from the past are all O's or somewhere cant be bothered bout me.. so yeah.. i'll enjoy more M18 movies alone.. hahaha

I've stopped drinking.. eating good food.. cause yeah.. seeing food reminds me of her.. and yeah.. dinner too.. hate eating alone.. rather i don eat and die.. but yeah.. sometimes nice thing happens.. its not the end of the world..

i was like walking alone that long winding road back to dover from Fc2.. after getting my packed dinner for 1 from my fav cai fan store.. some dumbass hit we on my back.. with a water bottle or something.. yeah.. nicole.. so yeah.. some time good things happen when u feel like crap and the sun setting down on ya..

But yeah.. studying alone is cool.. u see so many people u know.. also studying alone.. quite sad.. but shows that its not that bad too.. think i'll just wait for someone to pop into my life..

30mins to my run.. hmm.. ghost month.. should i go joggin? at nite? hmm.. no idea.. anyhow..
watched Life as we know it yesterday.. realised that relationships are just plain crappy.. and yeah.. there will always be a next.. just hope it only gets better..

my taste has changed.. maybe.. u don need a unicorn.. not saying that i don like unicorns.. but yeah.. small girls are cute too.. only that we don see eye to eye.. muahahaha

listening to one thing by finger eleven.. the show reminded me of it.. and yeah.. would u give up everything and trade everything for 1 thing? just that thing that ya want? i would.. i only live once.. and yeah.. make it meaningful.. maybe i should really go for a brain now.. hahaha..

Cute girls are over rated.. maybe i don need another pillow.. have like.. 5? yeah.. can hug them when i sleep.. throw her out the window..