26-11-04.. What a wonderful day... It started when we went around hunting for guitar parts.. it soon got late and we were somewhere near peace center. We heard music.. someone playing Tian tian xiang ni by mayday.. It sounded great.. we sang to it.. and yeah.. it was excellent. Soonm we found out that city music was closed. We then walked back the way we came from. The music was still there. we went down, found a sit and started chilling there. It was paradise.. Paradiz to be exact.. we were at paradiz centre.. they had a live gig thingy going on. Under the nite sky.. stars.. moon.. music.. what a perfect scenario. We got them to sing some of our songs.. they did well.. chun zhen.. guan huai fang shi.. it was.. Perfect.. When they had to end.. we took a walk along orchard.. it started raining.. But somehow.. its seemed as if the rain made everything more beautiful.. everything seemed so.. nice.. we had to run through the rain.. but everything felt great.. somehow.. its different how u see the world when you're in the rain rather than watching it rain. We soon came to the bus stop where we waited for our bus to arrive. Maybe its the rain.. maybe its the atmosphere.. i got the courage to talk about something i've been wanting too.. and yeah.. its good to know that someone feels the same way u do.. life is indeed brilliant.. the day ended at 5 when i finished working on her guitar.. and finishing it with 2 blisters.. but yeah.. i know.. its worth it.. i really believe it is..
 

My Love Cycle

To me.. My relationships go through this vicious cycle no matter what.... here's my impression of it..

Stage 1:
Crush Period:

this is the time period where i go crazily in love with a creature of the other gender. I will have all my might in my hand, all the strength i need in the world to do ANYTHING for her. This is also the time when my wallet is near to being non-existent. I will spend all my cash.. no matter what, and still feel happy about it. I also have the constant adrenaline when the subject is in my visual range. To put it simply, experience the meaningless high of love.

Stage 2:
Crash Period:

this is the time period when the high feeling fades. Reality gets to me and i lose all that drive that was present before. I start swearing(again).. go nuts.. search for thrills.. and most importantly, live life as if i was nuts or realli pissed off. (Like what i did last night..) and live like a rock star, severely hang -over-ed.. unconscious.. and has no regard for common logic..

Stage 3:
After Burn:

This is the time after crashing and trying to kill myself through means like drinking. I get back my common sense, logic, and ability to not be affected by the gal that could torture me emotionally before... And from there, i will take up moral responsibilies to ensure that the girl doesnt get screwed by my dumb actions and to make sure that the ending to either the fling or something else is.. pleasent

Stage 4:
Independence:

this is when i can think that its good being single cause i'm carefree and can do what ever i like, while ignoring the usual loneliness and boredom of it. And when i start missing relationships, the cycle repeats and goes back to stage one. Sucks eh? hahaha.. yeah.. just hope i can break it.. hahaha..