Do you know your demons?
Be glad that you don.
If you know what they are capable of, you'll prefer you'll never knew about it
I have shown a portion of what i can do.. and someone can easily get hurt..
Somehow.. Deja vu... Stuck in the sick cycle...
Fighting my demons.. something that i can due alone
i need something to chain me to not hurt anyone i love..
Even it is at my expense..
I have to do this..
This feeling is all too familiar..
All these primal demons arise from a common source.
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Something has to be done
Saturday, January 14, 2006
Emergence
I have a feeling deep down inside out me.. Something familiar is going to coming back.
Something that might not be useful for myself.
Something that i dread.
Something many will think that will do more harm than good to me.
But however, i do not feel that way. When God gives you something he takes something away from you.. and i believe he has given me something when he takes my happiness away.
However, is that what i want? Will it harm those who are close to me? I hope not..
As i would be fighting myself.. once again..
Something that might not be useful for myself.
Something that i dread.
Something many will think that will do more harm than good to me.
But however, i do not feel that way. When God gives you something he takes something away from you.. and i believe he has given me something when he takes my happiness away.
However, is that what i want? Will it harm those who are close to me? I hope not..
As i would be fighting myself.. once again..
Sunday, January 01, 2006
Back..
After 2 mths of hardcore spending and drinking coffee, we are back together..
Maybe after being apart for so long, it finally occurred to us that maybe we realli did love the company of each other that much, even though most people would regard this as a teen immature 16 year old relationship.
Anyhow, i'm 17 and in 4 mths, i can walk into a 7-11 and pick out any alcoholic beverage and stick my IC into the cashier's face. And yeah, maybe when we decided to give it the most into the relationship, we realli did what we said and we realli had an impact on each other.
I kinda miss being in a relationship. Although u cant just go out the next second after u thought of going out, u cant spend money on yourself just as you would want to, and most of all decide to stay out till the next morning without telling anyone ANYTHING. i like that, but i also like having someone to ask if i've woken up at 2pm, or msg me in the morning when i cant even tell if i'm dreaming or is actually realli look at the handphone.
Life is different.. now... again... i just hope it will just get better and better.. and i'll enjoy it more and more... but now.. i guess.. the metaphor for it as fireworks doesnt realli stand now.. maybe we can be like.. a normal couple? maybe... onli maybe...
Maybe after being apart for so long, it finally occurred to us that maybe we realli did love the company of each other that much, even though most people would regard this as a teen immature 16 year old relationship.
Anyhow, i'm 17 and in 4 mths, i can walk into a 7-11 and pick out any alcoholic beverage and stick my IC into the cashier's face. And yeah, maybe when we decided to give it the most into the relationship, we realli did what we said and we realli had an impact on each other.
I kinda miss being in a relationship. Although u cant just go out the next second after u thought of going out, u cant spend money on yourself just as you would want to, and most of all decide to stay out till the next morning without telling anyone ANYTHING. i like that, but i also like having someone to ask if i've woken up at 2pm, or msg me in the morning when i cant even tell if i'm dreaming or is actually realli look at the handphone.
Life is different.. now... again... i just hope it will just get better and better.. and i'll enjoy it more and more... but now.. i guess.. the metaphor for it as fireworks doesnt realli stand now.. maybe we can be like.. a normal couple? maybe... onli maybe...
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