Emergence

I have a feeling deep down inside out me.. Something familiar is going to coming back.
Something that might not be useful for myself.
Something that i dread.
Something many will think that will do more harm than good to me.
But however, i do not feel that way. When God gives you something he takes something away from you.. and i believe he has given me something when he takes my happiness away.

However, is that what i want? Will it harm those who are close to me? I hope not..
As i would be fighting myself.. once again..