Memories

Memories should be left untouched. Even if i can turn back time.. i wouldnt do anything to change this.. the beauty of life is found in our memories.. the memories of us having fun.. enjoying life.. and the memories that prove to us that we were once together in this meaningless world.. in love...

you taught me alot of stuff.. alot of things even i couldnt have understood on my own.. what u gave me was special.. i appreciate that.. and i'll hold it dear to my heart.. now.. i can actually put a face on love.. and that face.. would be yours.. every time i think of you.. i would think of something wonderful we did together.. i would think of the wonderful sunset we saw together at sentosa.. the fireworks that we always happen to see.. i would hear the music that we called ours.. the love songs that i would never ever forget..

Even though its considered history now.. i still enjoy recalling it.. as it is so beautiful.. so beautiful.. like you...

Letter to my Dear... my darling..

Hi... always wanted to write a letter to you to tell you how i feel towards you... but somehow.. didnt.. and couldnt.. so. .here i am.. trying to write one and hope one fine day u can see it here.. i'm not going to tell u to read it.. i'll just leave it to fate and stuff.. and it would be good for u to see this..

Dear darling.. donno why i still calling u that.. but yeah.. to be frank.. i like calling u that.. somehow.. i think i miss you.. but like i said before.. the past will remain as the past and nothing is going to change it.. When we were together.. i kinda regret making u cry so easily.. everytime i become upset or pissed.. u'll get upset too and start crying.. and yeah.. i don like that.. but i believe u realli shouldn cry so much for a lousy guy.. i like wiping ur tears with my hand or my shirt if u like.. but.. thats not the way to get attention.. i realli think that we took each other for granted..or that it was mostly just me taking you for granted..

i like the way u hug me.. how u touch me and let me open up to people.. but yeah.. till now.. the onli 2 women i hug is my grandma and u.. but yeah.. guess it works that way.. before u.. i cannot even dare to touch someone of the opposite gender.. and u taught me how to show love towards someone.. just by ur actions.. ur gestures.. and i believe.. its.. just.. purely.. beautiful..

i like it when u dress up.. and become confident.. i always believed that you're just plain gorgeous but u don like to put in the effort to dress up.. and when u did.. i was indeed proven right..u're realli gorgeous.. i like the pics we took together.. i like ur smile. the look of happiness in ur eyes.. thats why i treasure theses pictures so much.. and they are still with me now..

i believe that you're never fat.. or that ur arms look big.. but i believe that no matter what.. if u have confidence.. u can shine and make head turn no matter what.. so.. there fore.. i end here.. just like that.. i onli have to say.. stay confident about urself.. and the next guy u meet will be better than the guy that made u cry dozens of times.. bullied u non-stop and always criticised you.. take care k? cya someday on some street.. somewhere we least expect it.. and we will have coffee and have a nice chat k? byee

life after 10mths

Oct 5.. how do i remember it so well? happens to be yx's b dae.. we celebrated in the morn.. realli early.. like.. 8... and yeah.. it kinda sparked something.. after seeing my old friends..

concerning our breakup.. there are several theories.. and i can onli discuss them in retrospective....

Theory one:
Distance has brought us further apart.. she went for her expedition.. camps.. participated actively in anything she could.. while i just waited for mine.. and with the days without even msging her, i got used to being alone.. again.. and.. it seemed to me then that i might not need all of her hugs and kisses to live.. (although i realli like that.. but guess.. it wont kill.. ) when a couple can survive on their own in their seperate own lives.. it always seems as though they can easily breakup and live with it.. and so.. we did just that..

Theory two:
we were living lives in 2 seperate worlds.. and it just happens to deviate further and further.. and slowly.. drifted apart and yeah.. leading to the breakup... duh?

Theory three:
Too many things.. Too fast.. everything was going way to fast and we just ran out of stuff to do.. became a lousy marriage of some sort which just required commitment and enduring monotonous life as a couple.. without kids to spice up life..

Theory four:
Companionship.. there was no need for each others companionship as either persons had something to occupy their time with and it was time to move on...

The4 theories listed may exist not as individual factors but as over lapping aspects to the breakup.. however, i who do not have the ability to watch the world as a third persons perspective.. cannot name the exact reason like i could in a drama serial.. and hence.. any conclusion made would be illogical and irrational.. i think i'm just blabbering.. sigh... =X