To my Love

To the one that Love.
No matter whether I have known you yet
Or that i have yet to meet you
I would like to know that i'm trying my best to change
And be the Best that i can be

I'll learn the ways to cook wonderful meals
Create wonderful desserts
And do wonderful things when you're arnd

I'll do much better than i have ever thought
Or rather die trying.
You will be my muse
My everything

I'll devote my life to you
but not just in a blind sense
Although i love you
But i still believe that i have to be someone
For the best of the both of us
And maybe our future too

Wait for Me
No matter how long i take
Give me time
I'll make something
Something worth the pursue
Something Wonderful

Wait for me.
Promise me
The girl i've yet to meet,
Or already i have?
I don't know..

But i just know that..
I have to focus on my goals
Get rid of distractions
Even if it spells loneliness

Its worth it..
I know it..
Wait for me.
My love.

FO time again

FO has always been a reminder of times..
I'm now a Tai Gong.. like great grandpa or something..
this year with 2 grps of great grandkids..
Helped them as much as i could..
let them enjoy also..

One of the grps kinda reminded me of myself..
low.. screwish group..
fought among each other..
exactly what aud and i did.. haha
but yeah.. when those words..
"today much better" came outs..
I finally got my justification for what i have done..
and what significance i had.

Missed cap ball. but i guess it doesnt matter
helped a friend despite losing slp.
i think it wld suffice.
and it did.

And as expected..
the cosmic forces gave me one thing for another
Good news..
for the loss of sleep
Its all balanced..

and i hope it always is.

I have a new favorite movie

After finally finished catching Stranger than Fiction on HBO.. i have a new movie title to add to the list of favs.

The conclusion was worth waiting and the hidden signs were everywhere.

Existential. and it brings a great msg in the end. Catch it. its good.

Don get put of by the language, watch beyond it and maybe u'll understand the movie better, even without scrutiny on the dialogue.

Why i am not alone.

No. i am not an altheist.
I believe i'm not alone.
and i believe things happen for a reason.

Serendipity?
Coincidences?
I don think so.

Went to search for her add just because of a gut feeling.
It wasnt there in the heap of emails.
Not anywhere.
Until one day i went tru my tabs.
There it was.
Now its on my table.

She needed my help.
As tough as it seemed.
I gave myself a challange.
There was help from xinru
and esp from that someone else
Which i appreciate alot.
The pieces started falling into place.

On the the train.
Phone rang.
Ooh its dad.
He gave me a lift..
more than that actually.
To about her door step.
and there i was.

5missed calls.
But still kept hoping.
Here came the 6th.
and it did the trick.

now.. 1120.
my bath and slps awaits me.
and soon the start of a new hectic day.
Good luck to me.. tmr.

today

More Ice cream.. today mint.. did ok.. cool recipe.. but still requires tweeking.
have to thank Yxian for the brownies to go with.. and they realli taste damn nice.. esp with my ice cream.. hahah.. how do the pics look? tell me...,

they arent perfectly shaped because a realli hungry fello wanted them after onli 1 hr of freezing.. supposed to be overnight one la.. hahah.. but yeah.. it will look better tomorrow.. at least i hope.

went for NTU dance concert thingy.. just have to say.. somehow.. aft 3 years of waves... i'm realli spoilt. how dance can be.. and i can actually pick out whats good and bad.. and onli then i thought. crap.. i've been watching realli talented people on stage for 3 years.. esp when the first thing that came was.. cool.. theres so many nics in hip hop... or rach can do much better.. hahah..

but yeah.. this kinda thing is either u make it or dont.. breathe it.. not many can. hahah..

sigh. work tomorrow.. bz time now.. i'll need slp alot of it..

Lil reminder for myself

Chocolate Jargon:


Praliné - A mixture, often used as a filling, of equal proportions of roasted nuts (almonds, blanched hazelnuts, etc.) and sugar to which chocolate is then added.

Praline - The French and Flemish name for any filled chocolate.

Ganache - A dense and rich chocolate mixture made by combining chocolate and cream or liqueur.

Marzipan - Mixture of ground almond and sugar.

Gianduja - A delicious mixture of melted chocolate, sugar and finely ground roasted hazelnuts.

Lunch with aunt Albin

yay.. today (finally) had a lunch gathering...

2 pep la.. ok..

better than dining alone.

On the Menu..

Miso Risotto with Grilled Chicken

Looks super amaturish.. but.. taste delish.

Fussy me still think the rice can get a tiny wee bit of cooking to soften the rice a lil..

hahah

And yeah.. its my winnie the pooh plate..

Fine china =X

For dessert... Chocolate Ice Cream with Chivas Whiskey..

Took me quite alot of work to do.. and yeah.. thank god it turned out not bad.. hahah.. more tasters coming tmr..

and yeah.. bigger challenge next wk.. have to complete a nice recipe and make it my own =)

Stop and stare... at ur player

How to Play

1. Put your music player on shuffle.

2. Press forward for each question.

3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.

4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

5. Tag 5 people.Okay, GO!

How are you feeling today?

hao xing qing (just be yourself) -S.H.E

Just feel like me? hahaha.. feel good also ba

Will you get far in life?

Dang ni li kai de shi hou- Tanya chua

hahah.. is that a yes? onli when someone leaves me ah.. hahah

How do your friends see you?

Zai yi ci yong you - gong shi jia

hahaha this one i donno.. like have me again ah.. maybe its having me arnd too much?

Will you get married?

Kong qiu qian - lin yu zhong

This is like a straight out NO! hahah.. empty swing or something..

What is your best friend’s theme song?

Liang zhi lian ren - Chao Ge

$%^&*( sickening lovebirds.. hahah.. yeah.. quite true ba

What is the story of your life?

Zui zhong yao de xiao shi-mayday

yeah.. my life is made up of the small things that matter.. so true.. hahah

What was high school like?

Thriller - Fallout boy

this one quite funny.. quite true.. thriller.. hahaha

What’s in store for this weekend?

Jiu rang zhe shou ge - Zhang zhen yue

like the song.. loop.. emo.. and just feel sad going tru memories lor.. haha

How’s your life going?

Yuan you hui - j3?

eh.. this one i don understand.. hahah.. maybe not good not bad ba..

How can you get ahead in life?

Sugar we're going down - Fallout boys

by going down... hahah.. crashing ba.. so weird.. so i must fail to suceed.. cheem

What’s the best thing about your friends?

Ai wo bie zou - Zhang zhen yue

they wont leave me? hahah so good rite.. like me then wont leave me.

What song will they play at your funeral?

yi qian ge shi ji- Mayday

wah.. 1000 centuries.. means i'm like super immortal or something.. hahah.. vampire kinda thing

How does the world see you?

Ai qing bu neng zou bi jiao - Pin Guan

aww.. so sweet.. oh.. ai qing ah.. not me.. hahah.. my love cannot be compared.. cheeeesssy...

Do people secretly lust after you?

xie xie ni de wen rou - S.H.E

this means yes pls. but not b'cause of my body or anything.. so sad.. just for being swweeett?

What should you do with your life?

Crazy - Aerosmith

Thanks.. but i'l already crazy.. so.. its a gd thing?

Will you ever have children?

Zai zhe yi miao- Mayday

means.. now? hahah cool.. what bout... NOW!

What song would you strip to?

Xiang xin - Mayday

one of my fav songs.. hahah.. nice swt love song.. but not exactly nice to strip to.

What does your mum think of you?

Wu yue tian - S.H.E

means.. very cool? hahah i donno.. maybe bunch of apes ba.. hahah..

What is your deep, dark secret?

Chong shang tian- mayday

yes.. i'm a momma's boy.. but its not exactly deep dark eh?

What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?

Chao ren - mayday

cool.. my enemy is superman.. swwweeett. means i'm like super villian.. overweight-man

What’s your personality like?

Symphony no. 9 ( Scherzo) - Ludwig van Beethoven

ehh.. typo? schizo ba.. that everyone knows..

What song will be played at your wedding?

Erase\ Replace- Foo Fighters

haha.. means can erase memory and replace with someone else? hahah.. so cool.. kinda insenstive for the bride thou.. hahah

Tag 5..

1. Alex bro

2. Audrey

3. Chi Chi

4. Rosa

5. Yxian

4.50

Hey peps.. see whether u want to take this job.

Morning opening:

1. wash juicer
2. wash used dishes (from the day before)
3. wash rags
4. sweep floor
5. cut fruits

Ah.. opening.. done... now start business...

Beverage station..

1. Smile to customer who walks away..
2. Blend fruit juice when customer want..
3. Cut more fruits to replenish
4. Serve and cut pizza
5. Walk out serve customer
6. Clear customers' crap
7. Press the F***ing button on hi-fi
8. Wash more dishes

And you thinks theres no more to be done..

Delivery! go pick up stuff.. move back to kitchen.

Dishes dishes dishes..

and today i got to do something special.. go to a bank and run errands.. =) in the rain!

hahah.. running errands is fun. u can take ur time and waste time.. but not that useful here.

and yeah.. i would have given second thought if the pay was decent. which isnt...

you stand for a whole 8 hours.. and thats what u get.. don justify rite..

so yeah.. my first and last day... hahah

volunteer for one day.. 33 bucks.. don realli matter if they credit that to me.

and realli have to thank the cook for letting me know the insides and getting me an interview. =)

not everyone will take advantage of u.. even at a place like that. people i spent my day with were nice. but i'm there to work and not just to make friends. =)

Bottom of the valley

Like what i told rosa.
See whether the feeling fades
impluses
desires
and everything deemed stupid.

maybe mr emo is the rite name for me
maybe mr stupid will do fine too
No matter how well the chocs are
how hard u try to play that guitar
at the end of the day u must realli like the person
and resist being with someone just for the sake of not feeling lonely

So.. is it first time? or is it whatever it takes?

My journey starts again.
Probably one that i will embark alone.

Updates

Got a job at Central.
Life's going to become interesting.
Watched Leap Years.
Not bad.

But is there really a half for me out there?
According to plato?
Can he be wrong?

Or maybe she's just a tete buche..

i might never know...

Whatever it takes

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

The Roach that Just Wont Die.

打不死的蟑螂

Persistence.
Whatever i do. who i go out with. everything i eat, do.
i think of you.
The pasta don taste as nice as before.
Although the cook is better.

I'm just giving in.
you're back.
at least we're talking.
the little we have...

is enough for me.

my goal: NAPFA silver.
chinups 5-6
standing board jump 232cm
2.4km run 1155

eat right. no chocs. no alcohol. no desserts.
abstain for 1 wk, happiness for 3 mths.

*****... *****..

Make Me Pure

Maybe its me.

But i'm back with my elements.

Slept my day away.

First thing that popped up on radio when i turned it on.

Cool Eh?

Its funny if u can get it.

Only if the joke is not on you.

To little miss valentine

Dear little miss valentine.
Like the time i blurted over the phone, and all those random times which u deem "unnecessary", I like you. I like you alot. Enough to change. But. I guess its impossible.i tried to roam around and revolve ard u, but theres still a fact. no matter what, everytime i know that i'm meeting you, i will ensure that i'll keep in mind that i'm "reserved" for you, so much that even if pep try to date me, i'll push them away..

i realli hate to tell pep to ask me another day.. i just find it sad that i just cant be there when someone asks me to or wants me to. but sometimes.. for you.. i'll just do it.. but i guess.. its all one sided?

Cold. so cold. maybe its realli one-sided and its just me. but i don care. it just hurts sometime and it hurts enough for me to just give up and implode. i'll stay away for now. and u can forget about treating me.


Everything that i've tried to do. replace u. ignore you. it all failed. maybe its just stupid of me to do that. and maybe stupid to fall for you in the first place.

I'll just stay here. Alone.
Delusions, no matter how u doubt them, still shows the desperation for hope