xmas xmas xmas

Xmas was cool. Busy busy busy.. Met up and went for lunch at novena and ate the new pasta de waraku at sq 2. confusing place. had kinda a wait for me.. but it was ok.. went shopping.. bought stuff for later that night.. kinda nice.. short.. but nice.. and yeah.. enough to keep that smile on my face for that day =)

tiring day. met ah yee after that to get ice box from her. wanted to meet at yck or something. but she went dn to jurong. met her at IMM.. walked till like 10.. then got some donuts for later. after reaching hm.. kinda late.. but still wanted to play some hellgate with marcus.. and yeah.. got late for like 15mins.

hopped onto 502.. which was super wrong choice.. wanted to escape the crowd.. with all the ice box and donuts and all.. but yeah.. made it worst. cause 502 went into orchard. massive jam. insane pep spraying snow and stuff.. sick. damn sick.

then waited till like 2..for jiawen and all to meet.. hahah. coffee.. and did shopping. there was like this couple at starbucks on the opp table.. think they guy baked something for his girl.. and like all lovey dovey and stuff.. hahah. too bad mine wasnt..

whole rational of making my xmas eve so busy was that.. people should enjoy their xmas eve, not work and get their dreams fulfilled. and yeah.. for those who worked.. still shld hav fun.. and i was there to wait till 3 and supply food and beverage. a lil bit of wine, food.. and yeah.. kinda over-rated to start with.. my intentions didnt realli come out that nite.. but i guess its just fine like that. i don need pep to tell me what i did was great.. no need to PR.. cause i know best..

but yeah.. after all that.. waited for the first train like the other pep at clarke quay.. fell aslp standing after that long day.. and got home.. bathed and made xmas breakfast for my family.. survived till 9 and before that.. kept someone company on the phone till i lost consciousness.. hahah..

but there the down side.. i spent so much time outside my hse that my oldest basil plant kinda grew so much it just jumped off the ledge of my balcony. lost 3 plants in total.. and yeah.. kinda sad. if i just did that pruning and didnt procrastinate. saddening. but good things happen. bad things too. they all sum out right.. and yeah.. thats karma for u. will be quite sad.. that 3 water suckers wont be arnd anymore.. and it'll take long to get my pesto going.. hahah..

anyhow. happy boxing day to all. and hope u guys enjoyed xmas as much as i do. =)

Cool.. i like xiao qing ge.

i feel airy. cool. wheee

All Men are blind

191207
i think ADD was that full stop i was looking for in my poly life.. that wonderful conclusion to the well written book. Don blame me for the emo song. it was playing in my ipod. 7am in the morning when i reached home.

was at table 28 with my classmates.. and i swear.. i enjoyed it more than anything i've done this year.. food was ok. not that bad as it seemed from the menu. and i had 2 bowls of that infamous see chuan veg soup. hahah. and the conversations were cool too. hahaha.



but before we actually sat down to eat and stuff, there was 1 whole hr of photo whoring and the 3 our us (figure 1.2.1.12.2.3, below) started to warm up. hahah. the 3 of us had super hard time shopping for stuff which we did together and i guess it all turned out great. outfits all look good =).. and yeah... all the trials and tribulations we've gone tru together.. i guess.. thats whats makes life interesting ya? hahah.. i think they'll either stay with me forever or scar me for life.. just how u look at it. hahah.


and yeah... not forgetting the friends i made in the 3 years beautifully summed up in the picture. actually got more la. but these are the sort of closer ones.. all yr 3s. and all the stuff we've done together.. camps.. camps.. and i think events ah.. hahaha.. so cool to have a huge group of friends after 3 years of doing nothing in CLS club. and what we did also shld stick with us for some time. memories.. memories.



ok la. i know that i'm drifting alrd. but the main point of this is that.. although i've known many people for the 3 years.. but somehow.. u just don get to see some sides of ur friends.. not a bad thing.. just a wonderfully good thing actually. and yeah.. my jaw dropped when i saw her actually. cause.. i think i was like realli realli realli wrong. hahah.

and yeah... presenting.. the best dressed, most gorgeous gal of ClS ADD 2007.

I wanted to make a joke about her dress abt how many dwarfs u can fit in under it.. but i wasnt even able to do that when i was stunted by how she look. as i wouldnt normally say it.. "是漂亮的lor".. hahah. serious. think everyone will think that i'm just bs-ing.. but i mean it when i say i take back the mean stuff i've said. =) now i feel bad.

and yeah.. found answer to my existence. cause someone actually asked me why i'm single throughout poly life sometime ago.. and i found out why.. that comes to the title of the entry. all men are blind. cause u wont take note of the girls around u.. and that no matter who the girl is, theres something realli attractive, realli great about the girl, but all men are custards who will not see that. somehow.. i tot i spent my time knowing the girls arnd me.. like talking.. knowing what they like.. and just enjoying their attractive-ness from a distance. and i believe thats much better than sticking to one girl and obsessing whether she replied ur msges.

why are there so many pretty girls yesterday who are single? from those whom i taken pictures with.. they are all so great in their own ways.. but there are no guys swarming arnd them like bees.. see this proves that guys are just custards.. and even if i managed to realli appreciate some of them, i'm still a guy and i missed out someone quite close to me. see?
WE'RE ALL FLAWED

lastly.. for the nice conclusion which is hopelessly digressed, i hope that all the nice single girls that i've known for the 3 years will find someone who is truely worth your company.. and see what i see in all of you. and like some famous guy said.. (james blunt)
You're (aLL) Beautiful...

P.S.. for anyone upset by this blog entry pls flame me at my tag board. you'll be the first. and yeah. anyone can kill me if u'll like to. and u'll just beat NS to it. =) .......and i'm realli bs-ing.. i mean it ya.. realli..

Where shld i start?

hmm.. lets see.. early morning woke up wanted to continue hellgate-ing but ended up doin work. met alex and wayne who were also late.

shopped for my shirt, spent a bomb on it. but the beng package looks fine. shopped with wayne and all for his jeans. didnt know levis made so hard choices for us. hahah. but black is in. =)

dinner and cheenese restaurant, nice noodles. nice beef.

then i decided to ps everyone and head to clarke quay on my own to meet jennifer alan kevin and xinyu.. cool part is that i met them on my way to crazy elephant.. and i didnt even need to msg anyone.

went to prep the cake with them.. actually got spotted along the walk way by ww, but the bday girl didnt see.. so i guess its fine. did the whole candle surprise with song singing thing.. and yeah.. made her cry. touching.. touching.

broke my alcohol rehab again. counter: 0 days. cool part bout that was that i didnt WANT to drink. but i needed to drink. so as to ensure someone else doesnt. something like repaying the favour. but yeah. she survived the nite without headaches. i'm stillhere. means i'm still fine.

anyway.. just want to say that.. maybe i'm just that weird creepy stalking kinda asshole.. but cant it be good? batman does that.. onli to come in to save the day. but i hope i have more than some gay utility belt.

randomness rocks.

Choices?

Sometimes.. things work themselves out.
I don need to kill brain cells to make the decision already.
i thought i came to a desision.
but things didnt work out.
and i guess its meant to be.

1full day home alone.
i survived.
clearer in my head too. and i proved that i don actually need someone.
maybe i'll survive
and maybe.. i might actually get used to this lifestyle

Its all over

i didnt make it
The whole group didnt
that sucks

i don dare to check how i did.
optimism wasnt something i had all the while.
all the hits
all the problems.
so chaotic.

maybe i'm not the person i hope to be yet.
or can i actually reach that level?
i donno

but i know i need to get there to reach my dreams
so so far away

passion is one thing
reality is another

forever selling kits?

What do i want?

To grow up?
To find someone?
To find meaning.. (again)?

ok.. i've been getting my sleep.
Not too busy too
but.. somethings weird
i'm bored
no responsibilities
no guitar pieces to play
no money

ADD's coming. dance concert. Ms yess's wedding.
So many things?
but yeah.. nothing realli serious too
xmas is coming
but yeah.. somehow.. i have the feeling that its going to be boring.
seeing my self falling asleep or something. infront of the tv
xmas is the time for couples to go celebrate
be happy about each other
what happens to their friends then? hahah
sad to say i kinda hve a hard time finding poly peps to hang out with.
actually have a grp of them but i kinda drifted.
maybe its all of us. but yeah.. u get the idea.

choices are hard to make. even if to enjoy.. who to call
should i continue my lifestyle or do something useful with my time?
work? study? play hell gate?
i choose the last one.
but yeah
somehow.. i realli dread this choice
cause it will determine whether i break hearts
go nuts.. or how my life would be for the next 2 years
and should i choose posh or practical?

so many decisions. i don want to make. tsk tsk.
maybe i need a date with my friends..
just to tell me how i cant be with anyone..
or that no one will suffice.

What drives u?

Canele. Chef pang.

Before that, I visited the ramen place at central. didnt matter what the name was. but it was good. nice eggs and tamago also.

Had desserts. earl grey and also chocs to take away.

This is what i want in life. Sensations. Taste. Music. Romance. Passion.

Fireworks to sum it all. is this a temporary high? but life's not interesting without the sensations.

I like classical guitar. Flamenco. That passion for love. life and music. i want that.

Food. people putting their emotions and passion into their creations. i like.

I want life to be interesting. Stagnant life with stability does not appeal to me.

Maybe its the age. but i believe theres still so much more to experience.

Its all coming back to me.

Everyone... i'm back..