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hahaha.. due to popular demand.. i'll update.

Bz bz bz.
Captain ball like every alterate day.
Others i'm doing fyp till 5 and till i damn shag.
Report deadlines.. datasheets.. so many things

I'm sticking to one enjoying thing a week.
Once a week will go out with friends.. and eat talk have fun.
But this week kinda sick.
Old stuff. flu cold. asthma.. infection.. blah blah

Just woke up after 3hrs of sleep.
didnt go for dinner with shuxian and peps.
but i guess its for everyone's best.
I'm popping pills like no one's business.
tired. sick. lethargic. not exactly party material.

But yeah. somehow. after some events..
u look at friends differently.
not about judging. But its just what people look for is different.
We live our lives differently, it goes well when i doesnt get destructive.
But when it does. its not nice.

Competitive spirit. Something impt to have. but too much of it makes u all blind with power and greed.

Lust can make people do weird stuff. Go emotionally chaotic and do insane things.

i believe in choices. we make them, they reflect how we are. and i believe reflecting on ourselves we can choose to change and make a difference. Be a better person? at least try.

Somehow. kinda lost the drive for sch, work and even simple stuff like combing hair. maybe i'm just too tired. need a pick me up. something? someone? donno what it is.. but i hope it works.

so yeah. friends. don worry. i wil figure things out. onli how long it takes, haH.