Zen

Somehow. i'm at peace.
At weird as it sounds. the cling and clatter has stopped
i know what i want

but somehow.. is it a sign? or a mistake? where a path lights up which u know will lead u to more chaos.. and do u choose to stay put, enjoy the present serenity or run along onto the path of chaos just to lead an interesting life?

i donno. but somebody gave me a sign. but i donno whether somebody has the big picture like what i always believed.. but i doubt the guy up there will tag my blog. HaH.

Distance is not an issue. i can always walk. but somehow.. i don yearn for chaos. but its always a gamble, give up the peace, go for something better, sell ur brief case, then find out u have 250 000 bucks.

weird enuff, i need impluse now. to sell that briefcase and gamble. but ironically, peace don allow that la. will see. more sleep? or coffee might help.

The whole idea of fate, destiny can be equated to schizophrenia. What one believes in can be all delusions and dreams. I'm at a pt where i just woke up from my dream, only to believe i'm not dreaming, but i cant confirm if it itself is a dream. Thats reality for me.

See words don betray me anymore. i'm back.