Grey's anatomy

A good show will mirror life but make it much better.
Would u like to see ur life on tv? sch sleep work sleep work eat. Not much fun huh.

Grey's is cool. Theres like sex in every corner. and yeah.. interesting facts bout life. Like the guy who has a tumor on his frontal lobe, who can onli say what he honestly feels and what he thinks about. Take a philosophy lesson from that guy? ya i would.. but it might just turn out that he has a brain issue and u donno what u're doing.

And yes the choices, McDreamy or McSteamy? sadly, in real life there arent that many good choices, but i guess.. theres just some lives with less excitment and some with more.

Would u make ur life more exciting if u know that the end is near? Grim. But still something people should think about.

Soul Searching

What do u do after a day's work?
How do u clear ur mind?

I found a new way.. after fyp today. i went to raffles city and went shopping at market place. Bought some pasta stuff and soba.. nothing much.. but yeah.. u think and u kinda take a step back and look at what u have.. in the basket and in life.

I kinda figured now its kinda hard for me to think of something to talk about.. or just try to msg her. weird enough, now to initiate conversations i send lame msgs. which seem like nothing.. cause it looks like forward msgs, but i don actually collect those. i type them out just like that.. anyway.. i just find it hard.. to look for a day to go out.. to try to initiate a conversation or just.. talk?

Always had that problem.. but maybe drifting away makes that worst.. but now. i kinda figured.. if that someone is reading this out there.. i guess u don have to wait. now. i just don want to settle down.. and i believe that things that are meant to be, will fall into place nicely.

Simply, i am not a fan of true love, will not pursue it until the world goes down, i need it to make a believer out of me and show me its possible. Hard huh? thats why i need a miracle. I don need fanciful just. just a sign from me will do.

wanted to make the worlds best chocolates for u.. but i guess.. its just me.

Vid of the day

Wanted to put Natasha Beddingfield's Soulmate today.. cause got nice chords and stuff.. easy for beginners and stuff.. but yeah.. watched this for the first time on MTV. quite cool.. especially in the 7-month kinda way HAH

Zen

Somehow. i'm at peace.
At weird as it sounds. the cling and clatter has stopped
i know what i want

but somehow.. is it a sign? or a mistake? where a path lights up which u know will lead u to more chaos.. and do u choose to stay put, enjoy the present serenity or run along onto the path of chaos just to lead an interesting life?

i donno. but somebody gave me a sign. but i donno whether somebody has the big picture like what i always believed.. but i doubt the guy up there will tag my blog. HaH.

Distance is not an issue. i can always walk. but somehow.. i don yearn for chaos. but its always a gamble, give up the peace, go for something better, sell ur brief case, then find out u have 250 000 bucks.

weird enuff, i need impluse now. to sell that briefcase and gamble. but ironically, peace don allow that la. will see. more sleep? or coffee might help.

The whole idea of fate, destiny can be equated to schizophrenia. What one believes in can be all delusions and dreams. I'm at a pt where i just woke up from my dream, only to believe i'm not dreaming, but i cant confirm if it itself is a dream. Thats reality for me.

See words don betray me anymore. i'm back.

Hey there delilah

Hmm.. been stuck on this song for like a week now.. the emotions.. the simple chords.. makes me wanna write a song for someone.. but too bad. there aint someone.. and i think i have to be with someone for sometime before i can write something.. and maybe i don feel strong enought for anyone yet... so sad.. hahah

Love aint a competition.. to see who comes in first.. who's got the most.. who's got it now. that kinda stuff.. sometime just let time do its stuff.. maybe u'll meet someone better. someone who can last. if not it will be all meaningless.

To those around me that i wanna spend more time with. hope my company is something nice for u.. and i hope i can make pep happy.. thats all i need to keep me going. let go of the idea of pursuing Delilah already.. maybe she's already arnd me. but i don know yet HaH.

2 more years

Yesterday and today

Friends. Now i know whats the big fuss about them.\
Met yx, hx and xinru on fri night..
before that.. met hx at lab.. she watched me work with BME and bromophenol blue.. kinda sucks cause i made a mess and looking un-pro. hahah

due to the scary fact that 1) i made chocolates the day before and brought it to the lab and 2) went to meiji factory just like minutes before her arrival, i had loads of stuff to carry and i decided to like go home to put my stuff with her.. hang out.. then meet the other 2.

Fed her chocolates that i made.. she survived them.. and like ate more meiji stuff. 43.25. realli alot of food. hahah.. sucks.. poor... but yeah.. wont be hungry.
got a whole bunch of dark chocs at the 72,86 and 99% ones.. like 2+ for a box of 10. madness. u guys going to be so lucky. eating chocolates made by me.. ingredients supplied by meiji.. rocks. hahah..

anyway.. i spent my time with hx watching p&J show.. jap.. of a chimp and an ape. and yes. they are realli smart. maybe too smart. and smarter than my friends.. quite cool la.. but i was so tired i dozed off like once or twice. hahah.

Then went to meet them. had dinner at NYDC and kinda got stuck.. donno what to do.. walked in and out of coffee club.. lamed abit.. then decided to go to settlers and play some game. since the girls had a curfew.. we kinda played till 11.. quite lame. spent some time at the smart pep games.. then decided to opt for something retarded. reflex. asked ww and found out that the game called jungle something. can buy. but quite ex.. but yeah.,. its like quite intelectual too.. look at colours.. pictures.. and grab this wooden thingy. quite fun. made the girls damn high too. hahah. i also no voice. hahah they liked it.. and yeah... wanted to go back.. but will consider heading to ww side.. heard got better service. hahah

today went to the cls oreos bbq at linus's house.. quite cool.. nice play.. good scenary and like realli good food from the maid.. we quite spoilt actually.. cause we didnt cook.. and just ate and ate and ate. hahaha.. but fun la.. didnt drink. just crapped and crapped and went to mac and crapped more with shuxian and alex.. hahah.. tomatoe rocks..

anyways.. just to go back to the pt of friends.. theres no harm having more.. and u don need a reason to justify why u have friends.. not like girls.. she's pretty.. she's smart.. or what not.. friends.. like the way u are and u don have to travel that far. hahah

Existential Field Trip

Today was hectic. After plant bio, went to lab with loy to find that chloramphenicol missing. Its like aloy's property and he knows where he puts his stuff. Not like me. But yeah. found it under a whole stack of plates with Mrs Koh FYP on it.. hmmm.. shall not bitch

Anyway.. went to queue for donuts at raffles city again.. and yes.. it only took 1hr 20mins.. like very fast already.. hahah.. but yeah talked about everything and anything.. girls.. sch.. girls.. girls.. hahah.. and yeah met his 2 friends.. 1 by accident.. the other he was meeting after that.. kinda left after they went for lunch.. and i decided to catch a movie.. but kinda figured i cant meet by 4pm back in sch deadline.. so popped onto the train back to dover.. met nicole's dance god daniel.. his hair needs conditioner.

then.. decided to do some fyp before trying to meet that someone.. and i stumbled across the T11A notice board with the paper schedules.. its like.. immuno.. 23/08/07.. i was rubbing my eyes and i went 'woah'.. knowing that i was screwd and got the days wrong i went back upstairs to do fyp.

Fought with the glass slides and cover slips.. didnt do my sterility check as i found my 3 weeks old contaminated nutrient broth. did alot of not so meaningful stuff and it was like 5.. hanged arnd.. chat with the TSOs.. swapped chocolate making ideas.. and yeah.. stoned to see where my 1 box of donuts will go.. hahah.. there was demand.. but i had to make a choice who to give too..

After 1 sms.. i kinda flew down to eunos.. despite demand at like bouna vista.. but yeah.. i flew took a bus.. onli to find out she's not home and i kinda stuck on 155 till it got realli realli far.. it looped.. and headed like kampong glam if i'm not wrong. Walked from there.. to catch the train.. and headed back. Did alot thinking on the way.

Theres a thin line between sweet and sick. a smudge between interesting and irritating. but yeah.. u cant cry when u things don go ur way or ur calculations don work out. u made those choices and that made u eat 2 donuts while walking.. its okay.. its the consequences.. no matter what also cant run. change time, then try a different alternative.. maybe it will make things better. HaH

anyway.. got back on train. headed to jurong east to get that 31.75 polycarbonate mould for chocolate making.. prep to tomorrow.. investments and stuff.. got a simple one so that u can design not like some lousy xmas tree.

But yeah.. what i tot for so long was about who i was. i felt as if i'm a different person infront of different people. different people know different sides of me. i can be mild, bland and tasteless (true).. or like weird crazy and just plain irritating. Friends whom are the closest to me will say that "its just me".. but whats "mE?" hahaha.. talked to the survey lady that approached me like the day before again.. hahah.. somehow. i just hate talking to them.. but i just do. hahah..

After all. tired. but i guess i kinda settled stuff. Don try to hard to be interesting. Surprising or just plain drama and stuff. Make my chocolates. Go out with my friends. Watch those DVDs and vomit philosophy. Don care bout how ur love life would be. Just let things flow.. that is if its not all sticky and gross. hAh

Did i mention i talk to myself alot?