The end is near

Woah.. tmr's immuno paper.
I'm online.
Again.
Almost everyday.
I don realli follow what i say i'll do.
Lack that motivation.

But.. i'm truely distracted.
2 papers not realli pushing me to study realli hard.
have alot of time.
At least thats what i thought.

I spend alot of time thinking nowadays.
Too much time on my hands.
and yeah.. the future might be here so soon.
and whether i'll make that choice
is another thing.

I want to make use of the coming months.
before i get bald and go into the army mindset.
I wanna go for courses.
change my sloth character.
learn something
go outdoors.
talk to people.
and get away from the tv

went to browse sites with like chocolate making courses.. coffee.. kinda far fetched.. but donno if its possible...
maybe learn languages too.. like french and jap on my list.
but often i just don carry them out..
i realli know too little..
i want to know more.
get myself an edge
and hopefully move closer to my goal of going somewhere in the future.

i have friends who have gone to europe.. aust.. that kinda places..
i hope i see them before i die..
and i hope i can do that when i'm independent..
Hope.. hope.. hope.,.
but i need something to realli make me do it.
someone?

i always lack motivation and confidence..
if i can get that.. i'll be able to get over alot.
at least thats what i think.

the end is near. Grim?
Its just a new start.
i call mine adulthood.