Time for change

Hmm. after report submission, i don have much excuses left.

Nafa on thurs. make or break.
theres a retest. but yeah. its not an excuse.
maybe its the first time i will push my ass and try make it.
its whimpy to say that i'll save 4 months, but yeah.. its more of a pride thing.
either i wallow in me being obese or asthmatic and all..
or i prove it to people by fainting.

think of it this way.
i haven had a real asthma attack before.
maybe this is a good time
i'm not fat, not compared to the past.
maybe its psychological.
chasing girls' asses didnt work.
food?
dreams?
men's room?

i need motivation.
alot of it
to face my fears.
u stupid standing board jump.
i will conquer you.
wait and see.

awaiting tag from xinru. hahaha.. i can smell the sarcasm already