Mood swings

Work was great.

Had help from an unfortunate aqquaintance whom i end up being very greatful.

I'll be done with work much sooner than expected.

More of life for me.

Finally.. i get to meet pep after work.

But i still wanna work OT thou.

hmm..

Blew my temper once again.

i guess i only do that when i've met pep whom i care about.

normally i cant be bothered with even just anyone to get that pissed.

but the brightside was that i enjoyed that bot of sake so much i ended up waking up at 430, 630 and finally 855 to shut off my alarm which was supposed to ring at 9.

one week. thats all u need to have a change in ur life.

lets see what next week gives me.

so yeah.. for those who care about me.

my friends.

i can get emo.

but i can bounce right back too.

don worry.

i have to pick myself up sometime.

sooner or later.

To Xinru

Hmm.. i guess its right.

The vicious cycle is back.

Emo time.

Maybe worst this time.

Really feeling it this time.

Freud

Freud would say that this feeling is linked to some childhood trauma.

I say he's right.

I can remember that specific incident.

From then on i hate getting others into trouble.

Alot.

Even if there's feelings involved

I'll just throw it all away.

Its the one and only thing i do best.

Time for self-destruction.

Let it burn. let it burn

When theres no body

When you stop.

and think

under the mrt track

in the rain.

Why are u here?

Who has your back?

No one.


Welcome to my life

3 years of my life gone

Graduation.

A day that i didnt expect to come.

I went to sch to meet lex and wayne who were alrd photowhor-ing.. and started to take pics with them. hahah

then it was time for our ceremony. 3 yrs. familiar faces all arnd.. memories came back just like that.

You future is a piece of white paper. Unwritten. Many people found the speech boring. but i found it inspiring. like.. VEry?

hahah.. after that was cool. more photo whor-ing with class mates.. we even too 1 with ms chan.. sandra and i..

then we went to return the gown and stuff.. in the rain. and yeah.. more updates bout each other.. then soon we were done with it and we went vivo.. thai express again.. 10% off just seem so attractive. hahah

then we went star bucks to talk and stuff.. truth or dare with zhong zi mi ma.. the usual.. alot of hidden secrets revealed.. esp like my deep dark ones . hahahah... but yeah.. maybe i don like confrontation but.. yeah.. maybe after 3 yrs should end on happy note? but yeah.. shall update to know who's getting married or who shot gun.

Hope its not me.
Alvin
Cya in 2010.

Swim or Die.

Juz came back from drinking session with wayne alex and sx.

had dinner at crystal jade. damn difficult to find the specific one out of the 4.

haH.

After that went to TCC for coffee. waited for lex.

Kaffee-tini is gay. Lambo still best drink there.

Then went to pee. and ended up at Balcony again.

Pee-ed. and started first round of drinks. screwdriver, whiskey coke. one jug each. hahah

talked rubbished and drank... then i craved for more. tried this whiskey macallan 12 or something on rocks. not bad. smooth. nice aftertaste.

but cool part i'm still here.

no slp.

NUS open house.

I'm going alone. Hang over? and yeah. have to see how i adapt now.

the talks i wanna listen to is like from 2 onwards.. slpy time? hahah. hope i don disgrace myself. haH.

aunt house after that. need to make the bruchettas and all. hope i don screw it up and burn down her kitchen. wish me luck.

Sometimes u just have to function by instinct. by pass ur brain. swim. or die.

Would u eat cardboard with me?

I have tasted wonderful food.
With wonderful people.

But i always believed the person whom shared the pleasant food memories share suffer along with me when i chew on cardboard to make ends meet.

thats when u know u have met the person u would be with for the rest of ur life.

True or not?

Only time well tell.

My rhythm is back up.

Don worry peps. i'm not emo anymore.

Just awake.

No more delusions.


-Human.