Snow

Been in love with this song
Gimme the drive to play like this
Gimme a muse

Truth

Got my little Golden book on Truth.
No time to read it.

Yesterday was hectic.
I make chocs with lex and shuzhen yesterday.. had lotsa fun.. made lotsa mess and then went to meet wayne to pass him his guitar which i stole from him.

Then i took the train all the way down to bedok, hopped onto 40 and went in search of the mysterious city satay. it was hard to find, i got down 1 bus stop later and searched in the opposite direction. that was fine. bought the satay even though they should have been closed 1 hr earlier. Lucky i guess.

Then i went on the incredible journey to get to pit 35 at ecp. its madness. i took a bus till parkway and walked from there. its god damn far away la.. its like walking from one end to the other.. i was carrying like frozen satay in one hand and chocolates on the idea. i walked for forever, but still reached.. somehow i didnt start swearing at every single soul i see.. but i actually helped with the cooking cause i saw that the girls were doing the cooking and the good for nothing guys just stood around and waited to be served. i help to cook and all and i kinda missed the msg that i was waiting for.. when i did.. its like 9.. and i needed to meet someone. funny part bout that is that she's actually at parkway. so i had to walk all the way back and come back to the pit later. but it was fine.

i tried my best to walk fast.. but i didnt think it was fast enuff so i ran abit.. and yeah.. my stomach hurt like crap. had a little food and maybe no drinks.. and it felt as if my stomach was like eating itself inside out.. but yeah.. it got better when i continued walking to my destination. but yeah. i survived it.. passed her the chocolates and waited with her for the bus. somehow. i didnt speak to her like i had planned to... maybe still too shy or something.. but yeah.. i guess somethings i just cant say out..

But on the way back to the pit, i decided to give her a call.. despite the fact that i saw her just 10mins ago. and i just told her everything that i wanted.. almost everything.. but yeah.. i got a rather neutral response.. and i didnt know whether i should be happy or sad bout it. But yeah.. mad pep do mad stuff. and i think that maybe i should just stop doing stupid stuff and start to think about other stuff.. work.. life.. and my whole direction..

Maybe its not the time.. maybe its like me? or yeah.. just simply.. bad communication skills. i guess theres nothing much i can do abt it.. but just wait for love to visit me. while i enjoy my starbucks and a philosophy book that is.. =)

Happy?

Max brenna. Good chocolate. Happy
Donut Factory. 1.5hrs of queuing. happy people arnd me
Steak from buckaroo. Meat. Happy
Spiderman 3 poster from pop corn . Sleeping beside it. Happy.

All the same. Sick puppies

Somehow. after some turn of events. I'm depressed. I have this weird urge again. To seek what i find comfort in. Something i have no done for sometime. Drink. Until i cannot recognise my surroundings. Just drown myself from the emotions. I'm sure now. I'm still not over her.

Tagged

Each player of this game starts off by giving 6 weird things about themselves. People who get tagged need to write in a blog of their own 6 weird things as well as state the rules clearly. In the end, you need to choose 6 people to be tagged and list their names.

Weird facts abt me

1. I realli realli hate fresh tomatoes. They taste like puke. no. worst than puke. i rather taste puke than eat tomatoes. i've tasted puke thats better than tomatoes.

2. i can go to a buffet and suffice eating the full salad course. i like my veggies.

3. i like to kill myself by eating char quay tiao cooked in pork lard and with those bloody cockles. They taste so good that u know that every mouth u take ur life is getting shorter.

4. I like things in pairs.. food.. items.. but not after some breakup of some sort where i start being destructive and destroy paired stuff.

5. I have issues. i can be realli nice one instant and a raging lunatic the next, call it pms, schizophrena or just plain weird. i donno.. just hope no one pisses me off and stuff..

6. I like toys. not the sexually inclined way but like old-sch toys.. i still have my childhood stuff tucked away somewhere.. but yeah.. theres still this inner child in me despite the old hobo look that i have.

that 6. done. =)

hmm
1.rosa
2.aud
3.ouyang
4.yx
5.xinru
6.angela

Anger management

Am i lost?
Do i need someone to help me curb my temper?
Or is it a goal that i need?
Being more sensitive to everyone?
What bout a shrink?
or am i just sick and tired.. literally

Tell me if u have my answers

Post TLL.

ITP was a sucess. Nah.. it was wonderful. like what i named one of my movies. It finished my work and made my boss fred very happy.. now a brief introduction to my world. This is my table. as figure 1 shows.. hahaha my layout for table is simple. 1. have a book u know to keep u sane. 2. have alot of chocolate on your desk(must have high cocoa content) 3. have 2 water bottles there (1 for tea, 1 for H20) (not shown in figure)

Thanks to fred, once again.. i had a table from the first day (next to the printer), then upgraded to my own table with dust bin and own locked cabinet(no key). hahaha.. but yeah.. not many pep had their own table. and yeah.. i'm happy with what i have. located next to the door, i witness the bottle of agar explode with glass flying everywhere and yeah.. this kinda thing stays in ur head. so yeah.. peps in lifescience.. it doesnt take much to unscrew that freaggin bottle.

My life was simple. Confocal sessions, Plasmid cloning. PCR and and DNA extraction. Confocal was how i was earning the money.. but i side lined and failed at all those. My bench skills suck. i know that. but yeah.. it was a great learning opportunity and i got taught well by mathieu. he showed me that a scientist is called one not beacuse they dress weird or have super thick specs. Its all in the head. Its how u do stuff and how u look at the world. but yeah. i will remember his advice. ORGANISE my stuff for a long term benefit. down to ticking the PCR reagents i added. and the files that i have stored in places.

i grew ALOT of plates too.. all different seeds.. but i threw most of them away.. too old.. too contaminated.. and yeah.. its to see mitosis, not the dying of the roots right.. hahaha..

the cool part is that i did all that with pipettes.. and i had to put them in a nice line.. cool right.. hahaha.. and yeah.. must thank them for growing well so that i have stuff to look at.. =)

But yeah.. i guess i'll miss the place.. no responsibility for my plants.. no confocal.. no coffee machine.. and no coffee breaks at the smokers corner and listening to their lifestyles and stuff.. back to stupid old SP with stupid people and stupid things to do. i wanna go somewhere like TLL where the smart people are all at and yeah.. get smarter by leeching on their brains.. hahaha

anyways.. thanks everyone at the chromatin remodelling and development group for making my 7 weeks such a pleasant one and hope everyone do well in their own papers and life and stuff.. cya guys.. i'll be back.. =)