What is it with me right now..

Hmm.. something is wrong
i'm not motivated to study..
got my guitar back.. sounds better..
cost a bomb..
good strings.. that hole filled up..
had yong tau foo with carrot juice for lunch..
but yeah.. keep dosing off when i was studying BIA..
now i'm here at half way point slacking..

Mayday's new album is out.. been listening it for sometime already..
kinda miss the feeling of adrenaline in the blood.. the feeling of love and all..
kinda miss relating to the lyrics..
but yeah.. addicted to xiang shui.. cool song.. how i wish i can find such a girl to be obsessed about.. so sad.. need a girl to light up my life again.. the whole crash and burn thing.. love till it hurts.. thats something i miss..
but shall wait for the one..
and not find her..
so.. yeah..
waiting....

me me and me

muahhahahah.. finally.. my weird personality is justified.. hahaha.. not realli la.. but yeah.. xinru hse damn cool.. hahaha.. steamboat.. sake.. pink champage and yeah.. hx and yx was there.. played ball before.. sucked.. but yeah. gd exercise for mua.. and yeah.. we like hanged all over the hse and his bro also have maestro guitar.. good stuff..

after the ice cream nothing much.. but yeah.. talked with hx til like 4 am.. first time i do that in msn.. madness.. donno how i stand also.. drank the ghost sake and pured it into soup.. shold be enuff to knock me out.. taste good.. but didnt kill.. hahaha

anderson's 3 tub ice cream.. not bad.. but didnt finish.. alrite la.. but yeah.. company matters.. its seldom that i get to do stupid thing with my friends playing FDM at dinner table.. and truth or dare that i forfeit my sleep..

friends rocks.. but cant do this more.. sch starting.. might change by giving me more freedom.. but alcohol still must avoid.. tsk tsk.. hahaha

cant think of much to say.. so yeah.. cheers to friendship

Xmas shopping is for psychos

Went to run errands today..
Supposed to be simple. TaKa, Wisma and later city hall.. lastly JP.
But i died at stop no. 1..
Taka: checkout wine glasses.. okay... then i got more orders to buy FORKS.
the crowd was madness. it was raining.. and i didnt have my lunch.

Wisma.. not so bad.. bought nic's xmas stuff.. thats all.. zoom zoom.. still no food. got myself a green tea at the 7-11 and stuff..

interesting part between wisma and city hall.. popped onto train.. saw this familiar girl sleeping.. it was may... i didnt have my specs on.. and it took sometime to register and to shut me up from existential chitchat..

think she saw me when i alighted.. but i didnt say hi.. just frowned.. and yeah.. walked out.. usual.

Blah blah blah.. got stuff.. blah blah.. no in mood to blog anyway..
xmas rocks my ass

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alot of thoughts going tru my brain now..

wrote something on the bus with my hp.. kinda deleted it.. but yeah.. to put it simply.. this is one of the days which i tell people about my beliefs.

Karma: action reaction.. natural science physics what u call it.. but yeah.. u buy people roses, u get roses, u treat people bad, people treat u bad..

on the circumstance of friends.. i took someone as a pure WORK friend whom which had no much communication outside of sch work... and i guess the person is taking me for the same.. i find it pathetic that we seem so close but are so far apart.. people say that we look close but thats all there is.. whats having friends without having them to feel for u? i do for them.. but sadly thats not what i get in return.. but yeah.. maybe cause i refuse to feel or think anything of them.. cause.. everyone has their right to live the way they wanna... i wouldnt stop that..

sometimes u gotta theres someone looking over ur shoulder from up there.. either i am delusional or that.. at that instant when my pick flew before my solo, something told me that i should do what i have always been doing and not what i have been making myself too.. my background is a classical guitarist.. picks isnt my thing.. and yeah.. the time to shine.. i shld actually use my fingers and show what i can do.. thats a better way to consider than just.. F*** how am i supposed to play now?

and yeah.. abt friends.. i believe u will see ur true friends when u are confronted with a situation or problem.. people shine the best when they need help or meet a problem.. i can see that the year 3s are so united that u can see the CLS spirit in them.. something that i cant see myself having yet and that i cant see me doing with my 2 other friends.. just lack that passion.. that drive.. and that togetherness.. i cried when i saw the video in the audi. its like i cant see their spirit in the club anymore.. no more cheerful faces waiting for us.. and it would be so lonely without them.. thats what i call friends.. who cheer u up when u're down.. attempt to make u luff despite throwing their faces all over the floor.. teaching us life lessons like patience and persistence by asking u to pull a piece of cloth over a table..

To the seniors weixin, nasir, tat siong tze hao wei jian and qing zhen.. u guys rock.. and i shall remember u guys as long as i live..
thanks for all the fun and smiles u've given me.. Hope you guys succeed in whatever u do!
Three cheers!

White stripes rule

Saw this on MTV days ago.. damn rocks.. he works damn cool with the slide.. distortion is like music to my ears.. i will attempt this someday.. onli if got people appreciate.. hahaha...

Need help..

Somehow.. after playing guitar for so long a time.. still super nervous.. rather unconfident.. need my muse or someone to help.. actually left out a point to all my friends.. my muse is someone that i just helplessly fall in love with and give me motivation.. and often turn out to be just a plain friend.. hahaha.. its nothing scandalous.. and i'm afraid that my muse (previous) has lost her effect on me.. now i hope someone new will give me that hype and strength..

I seldom ask for help.. but now.. its just not something about me.. don want to let people down.. so shall do my best and seek inspiration.. hope the trip to do chores will help..

Gimme strength and inspiration to make wonderful music that comes from deep down..
tomorrow is the one and only chance i have.. make it good. u onli leave once.. and i shall leave in a blaze of glory..

hahaha.. bon jovi song.. hope i succeed with my solo.. and chords too.. give them a good show..
squinting.. cant realli see that well.. but yeah.. think i'll end it here.. for those who read this.. wish me good luck.. =)

Dilemma

I always hypothesized that a certain group of people would be affected by a existential dilemma.. where they would be unmotivated and that they would be unhappy with life in general sense. i believe they are those who are the new age free thinkers.. as those who have a religion would fall back on that at times where they feel lost and depressed.

For those who do not have religion as a safety net, i believe they will go through a search for the meaning of life.. and something that shall justify their existence. This process is hard.. as what they believe in might cause them to get into deeper water in which they would have to wake up and fall back to reality.

The meaning of life.. is something only oneself can understand and uncover.. however, i once found that the meaning of life can be around us to start with.. the people around us.. the facts of live.. in which we find precious.. and people who are our motivation and drive for life..

And so, i propose, for people who lack that meaning in life.. reach out to others.. and this might prove to be the meaning to your life while helping someone else in need and letting them find their motivation and strength to carry on in life..

Help yourself by helping others.