Spiderman Trailer out.cool

Muahahahah

hey hey

guys who actually care bout me and read this lousy thingy.. assembly of HTML codes to make something sorta blog,

i'm much better now.. in constant reminded of my goal in life, aka my logo( meaning).. hahaha.. and yeah.. my muse.. has given the motivation to cook again.. and yeah.. test out more mouth watering recipies to feed those around me..

read my man's search for meaning today till the point where i was sleeping on the train after a shot of volka at aloys.. neat room.. bose system.. but yeah.. my cheapo shit is cool cause the rock still sounds not bad and shall not compare it to a bose. talked damn lot with him today.. came clean and yeah.. happy that ive done so and that i am glad that i'm moved on.. but yeah.. i still care for the pep around me and yeah.. i still think of them when i make my decisions. cool.

But yeah.. going to show the world what i'm capable of.. i'l start talking again.. cooking.. being realli happy at an existential level.. if i understand logotherapy.. i'll work it on myself and those around me.. i hope i can use it wisely.. and help pep..

hahaha./. superman complex still present.. ubermench.. cool
thats all i have to say.. and yeah.. feeling like cool.. survived the shot.. still typing.. and dota AI is not that bad after all..

Get Busy Living or get busy Dying

From day one
I talked about getting out
But not forgetting about
How all my worst fears are letting out
He said "Why put a new address on the same old lonliness?"
When breathing just passes the time
Until we all just get old and die
Now talking's just a waste of breath
And living's just a waste of death
And why put a new address on the same old lonliness?
And this is you and me and me and you
Until we've got nothing left

this is something on the fall out boy record for the song Get busying living or get busy dying
quite meaningful for me.. especially at this time.. only that theres only me and no one else. interesting..

Friends

Seriously.. somethings.. all u need in life is just a few friends to let u know that life is actually worth the struggle.

I spend my time eating with aud, huizhen and wayne in marina square.. then head to esplanade roof top with my beloved stella, 1 blueberry volka thingy and a tiny bottle of choya..

Thats all it took for me to unwind. i needed that.. sch sucks.. deadlines after deadline.. friends are alrite but yeah.. not realli what i need to justify my existence.. i miss my old friends.. although they have their own lives now.. but yeah.. occasionally meeting up and talking works for me. met rosa.. hx, yx and ys before that.. and meeting simin on weds.. xinru too.. but didnt realli like go out and have a chat..

Poly friends are just plain.. hi bye.. rather superficial except a few.. gls.. but yeah.. everyone seems so stressed out nowadays.. not mentioning me.. i cant find a reason to smile or be happy in sch.. lecturers can be funny.. not nothing realli affects me..

need something to do.. not work.. something to unwind.. give me more motivation to work to and get my bum off that mouldy lecture theater chair.

Give me meaning.. give me life.

Drinking. Cool

Today went out with rosa..

Not exactly just enjoying by drinking and spending cash..but yeah.. we did lotsa stuff before reaching for drinks...
met xinru on way too.. and yeah.. he going for sp play thingy.. happy that i wasnt there.. drinking session was great

3 weeks.. sober.. broken again.. but worth it.. we went to this indochine place in holland v.. nice place.. hid in a corner.. nice ambience..candle lit.. blue lights.. leaves.. spinning fan.. but abit weird for 2 pep talking bout how screwd up their lives are... luffing away.. spoiling the ambience for couple who actually went there..

drank alot.. or a variety on my sense.. 1 pint erdinger draught, 1 small cup of cheap whisky neat, 1 shot to tequila, 1 shot of volka... volume small.. but eyah.. don drink too much spirits and stuff normally.. hahaha... bill was fine actually.. quite cheap..

i like these sessions.. but onli comes when people realli have problems on their mind and can just share them like this.. real.. nothing made up or fake.. the way i like gals.. and yeah..relationships with people.

Panic! at the disco

This video shows why panic! at the disco cant realli make it as mainstream.. somehow.. too much emphasis or if the whole subject matter is on sex is not too welcomed.. or maybe it just lacks the ring.. but yeah.. panic's music is nice.. but rather adult content-ish

heres the lyrics..

PANIC! AT THE DISCO LYRICS"Lying Is The Most Fun A Girl Can Have Without Taking Her Clothes Off"

Is it still me that makes you sweat?

Am I who you think about in bed?

When the lights are dim and your hands are shaking as you're sliding off your dress?

Then think of what you did

And how I hope to God he was worth it.

When the lights are dim and your heart is racing as your fingers touch your skin.

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck

Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me

Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of

Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?

No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating.

Faster, faster

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So I guess we're back to us, oh cameraman, swing the focus

In case I lost my train of thought, where was it that we last left off?(Let's pick up, pick up)

Oh now I do recall, we were just getting to the part

Where the shock sets in, and the stomach acid finds a new way to make you get sick.

I hope you didn't expect that you'd get all of the attention.

Now let's not get selfish

Did you really think I’d let you kill this chorus?

Let's get these teen hearts beating.

Faster, faster

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

Dance to this beat

Dance to this beat

Dance to this beat

Let's get these teen hearts beating.

Faster, faster

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

I've got more wit, a better kiss, a hotter touch, a better fuck

Than any boy you'll ever meet, sweetie you had me

Girl I was it, look past the sweat, a better love deserving of

Exchanging body heat in the passenger seat?

No, no, no, you know it will always just be me

Let's get these teen hearts beating.

Faster, fasterSo testosterone boys and harlequin girls,

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls,

Will you dance to this beat, and hold a lover close?

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls

Dance to this beat

So testosterone boys and harlequin girls

Dance to this beat

And hold a lover close

Let's get these teen hearts beating.

Faster, faster

Let's get these teen hearts beating. Faster

Thanks to Nina (iluvsk8rss@aol.com), Samantha (condemnedtonow@aol.com), Skye (Brooke_p_davis@hotmail.com), Viviana Rios (saber_07@hotmail.com), Laura Will Willson for correcting these lyrics

Turn offs

somehow.. been feeling down and super turned off lately.. just of the world of everything happening..

Detached from my friends again. battling insanity..
so yeah.. shall list down what i feel turns me of in the opposite sex.

1. Girls who smoke
2. Girls who drink too much (i drink but yeah.. drunk girls are so ugly)
3. Girls who have a higher sex drive then i do
4. Girls who swear as if there is no tomorrow
5. Girls who just want to have fun like theres no tomorrow
6. Girls who somehow just crave for attention from the opposite sex just for gratification
7. Weird girls
8. Girls who habour ulterior motives and abuse my sense of justice.

yup. can see that the last is something that i squeeze out and think i have nothing more to add... somehow.. stuff that i do. and some that i don are in that list.. but yeah.. just cant stand girls who look like old decaying flesh and smells of smoke and alcohol.. major turn off... and yeah.. somehow.. decided that Sins are not for me... simple life.. mundane... but.. yeah.. everything has a trade off.. i just wanna get my enthusiasm back into me.