Finally understand why drinking is bad for a person.
Its not only the damage to a guys's liver but to the people around them.
This holiday.. i have caused up to 4 girls to puke after drinking.. and somehow.. it all starts with me..
To these ladies.. i'm am indeed sorri.. and i have offered to stop drinking to show how much i'm sorri and i will stop drinking to minimise the probability of forcing someone to drink, or drink in excess...
Its not only about my liver.. its the pain the girls have to go tru after drinking way too much.. and yeah.. it hurts watching them suffer and know that i started all that. thats why i'm doing this..
friends who know me well enuff will know that its either impossible or madness that i will actually stop drinking...
but i know.. karma has it.. when u have happiness, u'll have pain.. now that i have had much fun.. its time to suffer and face the consequences.
I really enjoyed last nite.. but.. it ended on a bad note.. a very painful one.. and i am truely sorri...
To.. my great pal..
Nicole.
Sunday, June 25, 2006
Thursday, June 15, 2006
To my friend out there
hi.. my lonely friend out in the universe..
i would like u to know that u're not the onli one feeling lonely late at night.. and in fact most people feel that after experiencing changes especially when they lose something they love or had...
and most importantly.. life is not meaningless.. our lives are like a piece of canvas for us to paint on, our experiences, our memories will be left on us to reflect what we have survived. This is the meaning to our lives.. our purpose and meaning is the result of what we have gone through and understood for ourselves..
Essence precedes existence. We have to live our lives to know what our purpose in life which in turn gives it the meaning, unlike other organisms which are born into meaning when they know what they have to do.
So.. dear friend search for ur meaning.. remember that ur lonely nights are not that lonely after all.. look out the window, up the sky and you'll see that you're not alone.. and maybe remember that i might be somewhere.. looking up in the sky and looking at the exact same thing you are looking at...
my intentions are to seperate philosophy and real life events into 2 different blogs.. but philosophy and life.. is not so far apart...
i would like u to know that u're not the onli one feeling lonely late at night.. and in fact most people feel that after experiencing changes especially when they lose something they love or had...
and most importantly.. life is not meaningless.. our lives are like a piece of canvas for us to paint on, our experiences, our memories will be left on us to reflect what we have survived. This is the meaning to our lives.. our purpose and meaning is the result of what we have gone through and understood for ourselves..
Essence precedes existence. We have to live our lives to know what our purpose in life which in turn gives it the meaning, unlike other organisms which are born into meaning when they know what they have to do.
So.. dear friend search for ur meaning.. remember that ur lonely nights are not that lonely after all.. look out the window, up the sky and you'll see that you're not alone.. and maybe remember that i might be somewhere.. looking up in the sky and looking at the exact same thing you are looking at...
my intentions are to seperate philosophy and real life events into 2 different blogs.. but philosophy and life.. is not so far apart...
Friday, June 09, 2006
people
got a reminder on why i choose my friends..
there are people who talk to u... and those u talk to..
those whom u help... and those who help you..
i find the latter hard to find. i have seen those who really mean it when they help and those who are just in for the ride... for some.. just going the extra mile seems impossible and i kinda go against that. so.. yeah.. they wont be in the inner circle.. but.. somehow.. no one is right now..
there are people who talk to u... and those u talk to..
those whom u help... and those who help you..
i find the latter hard to find. i have seen those who really mean it when they help and those who are just in for the ride... for some.. just going the extra mile seems impossible and i kinda go against that. so.. yeah.. they wont be in the inner circle.. but.. somehow.. no one is right now..
time off...
What i regarded as a retreat turned out to be over-rated.
I could not show what i really felt.. i still had my mask on throughout the nite...
i didnt find someone to talk to.. someone who would listen to what i'm feeling.. but.. i guess its fine...
The problem with this is that.. i might not find that someone within this 2 weeks of holidays.. and i might as well go insane with all the emotions buried deep inside of me.. i realli need to let it all go.. and then recover and move on...
i like cycling.. i like the wind that comes with it.. but somehow.. the feeling of freedom was not all that was present.. there was a tinge of.. sadness... somehow.. i recalled the last time i had that feeling.. and it was after another era..
i guess my theory was rite.. and i'm at the part of the cycle where night is longer than day, and the world just crashes down back onto you.. and yes.. the long bus rifes.. starting to miss them.. and yeah.. there will be philosophy....
I could not show what i really felt.. i still had my mask on throughout the nite...
i didnt find someone to talk to.. someone who would listen to what i'm feeling.. but.. i guess its fine...
The problem with this is that.. i might not find that someone within this 2 weeks of holidays.. and i might as well go insane with all the emotions buried deep inside of me.. i realli need to let it all go.. and then recover and move on...
i like cycling.. i like the wind that comes with it.. but somehow.. the feeling of freedom was not all that was present.. there was a tinge of.. sadness... somehow.. i recalled the last time i had that feeling.. and it was after another era..
i guess my theory was rite.. and i'm at the part of the cycle where night is longer than day, and the world just crashes down back onto you.. and yes.. the long bus rifes.. starting to miss them.. and yeah.. there will be philosophy....
Sunday, April 23, 2006
thinking twice
Did i give up my committments too easily? i might have another interesting situation if i chose something what i did.. even maybe reach the top of my career of some sort.. oh my god.. am i screwing up my own life for something that is even to me... useless?
i need a drink...
i need a drink...
Am i going to settle with this life?
From a very long time ago.. i have found my goals to be rich and sucessful.. To be a highly paid professional who spends money like water.. and still have a sucessful life..
After my recent family gathering, i saw that my side of the family does not realli have that few characteristic while the rather 3rd degree relative has that wonderful life that i'll die for..
did i make another wrong choice that will result in a alternative future? am i holding onto a life style too much that i might stay like this forever and lose the chances of getting my wonderful life?
Do i have to let go of everything i have now to pursue for that goal that i might not reach? being motivated is good for me.. but is there something as being over motivated?
i know i wont settle for a normal.. peaceful middle income family with a 9-5 job where i have to come home for dinner, sleep and wake up in the morning for another mundane day of work?
I wanna play.. have fun.. know people.. but.. is there something in my life stopping me? should i pursue that freedom? Can i?
realli confused
After my recent family gathering, i saw that my side of the family does not realli have that few characteristic while the rather 3rd degree relative has that wonderful life that i'll die for..
did i make another wrong choice that will result in a alternative future? am i holding onto a life style too much that i might stay like this forever and lose the chances of getting my wonderful life?
Do i have to let go of everything i have now to pursue for that goal that i might not reach? being motivated is good for me.. but is there something as being over motivated?
i know i wont settle for a normal.. peaceful middle income family with a 9-5 job where i have to come home for dinner, sleep and wake up in the morning for another mundane day of work?
I wanna play.. have fun.. know people.. but.. is there something in my life stopping me? should i pursue that freedom? Can i?
realli confused
Thursday, February 16, 2006
Are you destined for failure?
Hey guys.. don be surprised! this is not the philosophy blog.. cause.. what i am going to say is more of genetics.. and not.. sad nihilistic philosophy..
Are you destined to fail? Something i thought of after thinking about Dr Lecter's stand on genetics.. the one about pigeons as examples.. here it goes..
High rolling pigeon - Dominant-R+
Low rolling Pigeon- Recessive-Rl
The dominant trait will cover the recessive trait and hence cause the offspring to be a high flyer. And according to mendel's rule.. ratio is like 3:1..
that means.. out of 3 offsprings.. 3 of them will be a dominant high rolling pigeon.. and 1 will be a low rolling pigeon. cause the ratio is like 1R+R+, 2R+Rl and 1RlRl(which is the low rolling pigeon)...
The significance of all this is that a high rolling pigeon can breed with either another high rolling pigeon or a low rolling pigeon, but a low rolling pigeon can onli mate with a high rolling pigeon as if a pure recessive low rolling pigeon is born,
It will be almost sure that it will DIE.... It will perform somersaults that will be too low and cause it to crash into the ground and die. (while the other happily rescues itself by flying..)
What if you're that pathetic 1 out of 4? predestined to have a disease or a problem that will cause ur failure in life? who knows? there might even be a failure gene not expressed in your DNA..
We'll never know...
Are you destined to fail? Something i thought of after thinking about Dr Lecter's stand on genetics.. the one about pigeons as examples.. here it goes..
High rolling pigeon - Dominant-R+
Low rolling Pigeon- Recessive-Rl
The dominant trait will cover the recessive trait and hence cause the offspring to be a high flyer. And according to mendel's rule.. ratio is like 3:1..
that means.. out of 3 offsprings.. 3 of them will be a dominant high rolling pigeon.. and 1 will be a low rolling pigeon. cause the ratio is like 1R+R+, 2R+Rl and 1RlRl(which is the low rolling pigeon)...
The significance of all this is that a high rolling pigeon can breed with either another high rolling pigeon or a low rolling pigeon, but a low rolling pigeon can onli mate with a high rolling pigeon as if a pure recessive low rolling pigeon is born,
It will be almost sure that it will DIE.... It will perform somersaults that will be too low and cause it to crash into the ground and die. (while the other happily rescues itself by flying..)
What if you're that pathetic 1 out of 4? predestined to have a disease or a problem that will cause ur failure in life? who knows? there might even be a failure gene not expressed in your DNA..
We'll never know...
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