Yay.. Our papa mama.. the 2 most important peps in our group.. the 2 who tot us how to billi blanja, say cheers and realli build friendship and term work in the group.. without them, breakwind will not be the best that it is.. without them.. there will not be any winnie the pooh song and wind breakers.. so.. papa mama... I thank god that we have u 2 as our papa mama and I myself WILL NEVER FORGET the both of YA.. YEAH!!!.. u 2 ROCKS!!! 

hahaha.. The 2 most girl guys in Break Wind.. but the best still Chun Chun.. The No.1 shim.. hahahaha.. although he must go for some boob enhancement thingy.. abit saggy liao.. hahaha.. but yeah.. guess he should change to sillicon.. water bag no good.. hahaha.. later someone smack then will burst liao.. hahahaha.. but yeah.. think peps will not care too much bout his cleavage.. hahaha.. got character.. guys like shy shy gals rite.. hahaha.. then sure will fall in love with him.. hahaha.. Chun ChUn.. you're da BEST.... Shim.. Hahahahaha 

Yay.. Wind Breakers.. Best Campers In the Whole CLS camp.. hahaha.. rocks.. guys.. you're da best! hahaha.. i think i'm being arrogant again.. but yeah.. heck.. we are.. we cheer the best, we have the best spirit and we enjoy Forfeits!! who in the world enjoy forfeits rite? hahaha.. guys.. We've done almost everything together.. sleep, eat, dance, play, beau cha boh.. billiblanja... hahahaha.. and yeah.. this has been the best camp group i've been with.. serious.. bestest best papa mama we have.. and yeah.. everyone in the team rocks.. everyone has something to contribute and to make our team better.. Thats what makes us the best rite? No matter what happens.. Our flag will always fly high in our hearts and the windbreakers will always remain the coolest, most sat group around.. BreakWinD Rocks! Three Cheers for BREAKWIND!!!!! 

Somehow.. 2 people with different worlds clashed together, onli to find out each other was already so close, onli seperated by few seats in a classroom.. Only after a chalet and hanging out for sometime, we finally noticed each other.. and fall in love.. somehow.. it was fate which brought us together, and have so many shared memories, do so much together, and experience stuff that we never had... and fully enjoy our time together.. I loVe you Darling..  

Me? Gross...

From the beginning of time, i have found myself to be incredibly disgusting in terms of the things i do and how i can always manage to screw things up in times where it would be most bright not to. Examples: breaking the nose of a close friend with just a flick on my water bottle, to swear infront of a person whom i was trying to impress and happens to be my present crush (then).. you get the idea..

but yeah somehow, even the most disgusting specimens have people liking them and think that they are perfect and stuff.. in my situation.. my present gf... its kinda funni how she can love me so much when i don even think i'm normal or mentally sane... somehow.. no matter what stupid things i do infront of her or to her, she kinda just forgets about it and loves me.. its weird.. after almost 16 years of being screamed at just because of my stupidity.. and someone likes it? weird...

Love is indeed a very very deep thing.. if not, i just don understand it.. it can make people give up their lives for their love ones.. change their way of life so drastically that they have to live with someone else for the rest of their live. and for her.. it is forgo logic to be with me.. even when i'm down with a highly contagious disease, she would want to be with me and take care of me and stuff.. seriously? am i worth that? i'm not sure.. if i were her, i wouldnt even want to be around this loser (me).. but yeah.. what does she see in me? i have no idea...

Life is meant to not make sense, not mentioning love. But i'm just not sure if its worth it, and not sure if i'm worth it..

26-11-04.. What a wonderful day... It started when we went around hunting for guitar parts.. it soon got late and we were somewhere near peace center. We heard music.. someone playing Tian tian xiang ni by mayday.. It sounded great.. we sang to it.. and yeah.. it was excellent. Soonm we found out that city music was closed. We then walked back the way we came from. The music was still there. we went down, found a sit and started chilling there. It was paradise.. Paradiz to be exact.. we were at paradiz centre.. they had a live gig thingy going on. Under the nite sky.. stars.. moon.. music.. what a perfect scenario. We got them to sing some of our songs.. they did well.. chun zhen.. guan huai fang shi.. it was.. Perfect.. When they had to end.. we took a walk along orchard.. it started raining.. But somehow.. its seemed as if the rain made everything more beautiful.. everything seemed so.. nice.. we had to run through the rain.. but everything felt great.. somehow.. its different how u see the world when you're in the rain rather than watching it rain. We soon came to the bus stop where we waited for our bus to arrive. Maybe its the rain.. maybe its the atmosphere.. i got the courage to talk about something i've been wanting too.. and yeah.. its good to know that someone feels the same way u do.. life is indeed brilliant.. the day ended at 5 when i finished working on her guitar.. and finishing it with 2 blisters.. but yeah.. i know.. its worth it.. i really believe it is..
 

My Love Cycle

To me.. My relationships go through this vicious cycle no matter what.... here's my impression of it..

Stage 1:
Crush Period:

this is the time period where i go crazily in love with a creature of the other gender. I will have all my might in my hand, all the strength i need in the world to do ANYTHING for her. This is also the time when my wallet is near to being non-existent. I will spend all my cash.. no matter what, and still feel happy about it. I also have the constant adrenaline when the subject is in my visual range. To put it simply, experience the meaningless high of love.

Stage 2:
Crash Period:

this is the time period when the high feeling fades. Reality gets to me and i lose all that drive that was present before. I start swearing(again).. go nuts.. search for thrills.. and most importantly, live life as if i was nuts or realli pissed off. (Like what i did last night..) and live like a rock star, severely hang -over-ed.. unconscious.. and has no regard for common logic..

Stage 3:
After Burn:

This is the time after crashing and trying to kill myself through means like drinking. I get back my common sense, logic, and ability to not be affected by the gal that could torture me emotionally before... And from there, i will take up moral responsibilies to ensure that the girl doesnt get screwed by my dumb actions and to make sure that the ending to either the fling or something else is.. pleasent

Stage 4:
Independence:

this is when i can think that its good being single cause i'm carefree and can do what ever i like, while ignoring the usual loneliness and boredom of it. And when i start missing relationships, the cycle repeats and goes back to stage one. Sucks eh? hahaha.. yeah.. just hope i can break it.. hahaha..