Cling and Clatter

random

2009-03-27T00:25:00.001+08:00

cool blogging on my phone. Serotonin levels fluctuating in my brain. Something is wrong with me. I know this feeling. I wanna run away. But where can i run to?

Time to step up.

2009-03-21T01:00:00.002+08:00

Alvin. Time to step up and do better. Step up your game. Stop being careless. You know the consequences. Take note of the details. Do what you have to to give a good job. Make notes. List. reminders. You know u can always do better.

Happy Birthday!

2009-03-08T21:49:00.005+08:00

Happy Birthday Aud! wait wait.. not 0000hrs yet.. but yeah.. its her birthday and i don normally remember most pep's birthdays. HaH.

But thanks to aud that i had a chance to practise making chocs on a larger scale and make myself much poorer. haH. made chocs for door gifts for her party. and i managed to get them done, packaged and delivered in time.

I know.. its a birthday and all.. and thats my present to her.. but yeah.. hope people who eat them actually taste them and enjoy them as much as possible. Didnt take any individual pieces cause they kinda are the usual ones i make.. and maybe i shall just show the end pdts as a whole.

V for Vday!

2009-02-22T15:07:00.003+08:00

hahaha.. forgive the sudden outburst. has been sometime since i've posted anything.. so yeah.. here's a treat and a glimpse of what vday was like for me..

Spent kinda the weekend before fussing on chocs cause a yxian kinda asked if i'm making any.. and so i did.. rushed the stuff out within 2 days and sent it to her. hope the box of chocs pleased something and stuff.. and that it was all worth it.

Kinda spent the time tweaking my choc ideas and improved on some of them.. used the technique of making my fav lemon sqs to give an extra punch to the grandmarnier one.. and got good comments bout it..

had a first attempt to make coffee infused chocs.. not perfected yet.. but i guess i'll have more luck when i use my new npresso beans.. will fine one fine day to blog bout them.. =)

Then came Vday itself.. went supermarket shopping at jp for some time.. picking out ingredients and all.. and got those creative juices flowing.. ended with a nice mashed carrot and potatoe cake.. with Seared Cajun prawns.. simple.. but tasty with the nice tiger prawns..

For main course, i kinda served risotto with tomato and shiraz infused sauce which i didnt take pics of.. and my little tiramisu from scratch.. with a little of brown brothers cierra wine and of course that npresso gourment expresso. Heavenly..

Although it wasnt any classy candlelit dinner, i guess all the hard work paid off and i got her some nice stuff and i guess she's quite happy with what she has? cough*monkey* hahaha..

anyway.. i guess i will get to update more with more time at home nowadays.. and hope my attachment goes fine.

Change is inevitable. But we are meant to adapt to change.

Life

2008-12-30T21:41:00.002+08:00

Lets see. wanted to update but the com kinda wasnt cooperative..
wanted to post pics of what i cooked but i guess its a wrong timing thing.

Stuck at home with 3 days mc.. gastritis.. whatever it means.. puked on mon morn and i met my lunch and dinner in the sink soon aft.

good part of this is the wonderful schedule which allows me to book in on sun.. but bad part is that its sorta a confinement.. no oily food and most food that have like a taste?

and as usual.. being stuck at home gave me time to think.

actually i think i'm way too stressed up in camp.

people think that way too.

on high alert all the time..

nervous wreck.

but yeah.. i guess i have unique ways to unwind. and chill.

i stand down only when i think theres a correct time for it.

and yeah.. i think rock music is essential in chilling me down.. and i don get that much in camp..

aww.. missing my headphones.. hope i get them back soon.

random?

Xmas is here!

2008-12-21T13:46:00.006+08:00

ok.. at least for my family kinda way.

had our xmas gathering yest and as always theres a tonne of food.. chaos.. and contribution by people even thoug they were damn busy and stuff..

This year theres new additions to our family tradition of over eating.. and it proved to be quite exciting.. hahaha..

And C and i contributed too. I made like chocs with an xmas twist and she did a tedious blueberry cheese cake that took precious sleeping time.

My Xmas Creations!

Left: Dark chocolate mint truffle coated with icing sugar

Right: White chocolate truffle with coconut and gula malacca ( hot favE)

Back: White chocolate mint truffle coated with candy cane

all of them were like new recipe and ideas and they worked out pretty fine.. all with a theme along too.. all the white snow minty xmas-y kinda feel to it. hahah a challenge for me esp with that date line of mine.

Next was C's creation of blueberry cheesecake which was made from scratch, painstakening baked and refrigerated repeatedly till the wee hours on sat..

The Blueberry sauce or whatever u call it is definitely the best part.. the sweetness is is just perfect to bring out the taste of the blueberry and not too much to overpower the taste of the cheese cake.

Something definitely good for this kinda function where people take food seriously and very good attempt for someone who bought her oven for only a week. =)

my friends dropped by too to have a chat and all with me maybe due to the fact that i sorta MIA-ed for something with the short weekends during bookout and other commitments.. had a lil wine.. food and entertaining chaos.. hahah..

the pic was take by sx and i think it describes what happens during xmas at my house. haH.

So many things happening at the same time. Can u handle it? hahaha

Chunkfest! Not.

2008-12-08T11:52:00.003+08:00

After reaching the 4th mark, decided that we should do something nice that both of us will enjoy.. what meant to be a surprise turned out to be too much of a surprise.

We got there after it had just rained and the sun got back up. So it was humid, muddy and incredibly warm then. And when we got into the actual place, it was damn crowded(free ice cream.. who guessed?)

We made it all the way up and found that the lack of tentage was getting on our nerves and soaking up in the mud to queue for our free ice cream wasnt much for a motivation to stay. So decided to do what other people have done, take pictures.. and get the hell outta there!

we didnt get free ice cream so i decided to take a bite out of the wooden board ones..

the only thing mildly entertaining was the foam stars that they had which floats arnd the place and it attracted crowds of people standing arnd, just to take pictures of the UFO. We even had to help some folks take picture for them.. like?

We saw the UFOs all arnd town after that and it was more of a pain in the ass than an attraction.. and yeah.. we got ice cream anyway.. in air conditioned comfort.. just to make it up for the mud sweat and effort. haH

1234...

2008-11-30T14:37:00.000+08:00

simply disgusting hypnotic song that i liked the the first time i heard it.

Simple.

and gets the point across.

1836hrs

2008-11-23T18:33:00.002+08:00

weekend coming to an end.
Start of a new week.
Cant sit still.
thoughts going tru my head
like cars racing on a high way.

Maybe i'm just bad alone.
After so long of being arnd people
or being inseparable.

Maybe its time to cut some slack and give a lil room for freedom.
or is it too much freedom for me?

Chill out Sat

2008-11-16T15:33:00.007+08:00

After a week of hectic schedules, ups and downs and nervous breakdowns..

i get to relax for a day or two during the weekend and just stay home, watch a nice dvd and whip up something to eat..

Grilled chicken sandwich.. not much of a cheem gourmet thing, but satisfies my craving for meat..

Just a simple grilled chicken with lettuce and slightly toasted bread.. delish.

Watched the notebook.. kinda sappy romantic film.. C liked it.. but yeah.. maybe a guy thing.. kinda obvious love story.. but yeah.. for the company ya?

hmm.. so is it rlly possible for it to last that long?

ponder on.

Avenue Q

2008-11-09T15:26:00.002+08:00

Cool. just caught Avenue Q yest with C. interesting musical and happens to be like our first musical sorta stuff in esplanade..

3 hours of puppets and adult-ish content. interesting.

Sucks to be me eh?

hahaha

Updates.

2008-10-27T19:20:00.003+08:00

After a really short week, shall brace myself for the real deal.

What cant kill u makes u stronger.. but what kills u kills u.. shall tread on that line as well as i can and do everything well enough to get me my 2 ikan bilis.

Weekend was fun. ate alot and jogged like once this morn. shall step it up when i'm inside. get some stamina and stuff. Fri was mostly staying hm and resting with c coming to visit and just hanging tgt.

Sat had dim sum with alex wayne and sx at tong lok at ecp. not bad the food and i believe i ate enuff to get the cost back. hahaha then aud joined and had la mian for dinner. 3 botaks met lotsa pep on the way and u cant believe how much NS guys can talk when they meet each other. hahaha..i'm the "other" kind so wont have so much to talk bout. but at least theres a convo.

Sun was out with C, went back to amoy street fc for food, most stalls closed but had this nice fish porridge which cost 7 bucks, not wholesome but good enuff to eat. chinese desserts were next and we shld get there earlier next time. haH. walked anrd like everything from china town to clarke quay and headed home for dinner. Steamed fish and curry.. MMmmm.. somehow after ns.. i always get cravings not for the sinful stuff.. but more of steamed fish. like old sch promfret teochew style. something i don get to eat often. maybe thats why.

aft talking to the guys i found out that actually what i go tru aint that xiong and bad. in terms of numbers, we don do that much and theres alrd concern over safety.. so it aint that bad eh?

Brace and take it like a man.
"you're a big guy and should have some power eh?"
lets see some power in the coming week.
and make C3P0 into the terminator kinda robot...
its not OSA if its all in my brain eh?

Picnic Time!

2008-10-05T14:10:00.004+08:00

041008
Went to Fort canning for picnic and i didnt have to do much work. hahaha. being in camp u don really have time to think about what to cook and do.. but yeah.. this time someone else did the work for me ya? =)
Started the day with fruit salad and freshly squeezed orange juice.. made from a dozen oranges by hand.. thats as good as it gets.. but even i wont be hardworking enuff to do that.. or maybe i'm just lazy..

then there was egg and potato salad.. also made by C.. how does she do that anyway? like so much prep and effort just to feed me. hahaha

okay.. finally my little contribution to the day.. croissant-wich with ham, eggs and cheese.. and lettuce of course.. like a one course meal kinda thing. hahaha i know it looks hideous.. but i'm greedy and tried too much to fit everything in one serving. haH.

For dessert there was the chocolate tart that C made with marshmallows, short bread crumbs and cornflakes.. hahah mmmm Chocolate..

after enjoying the food, we went for eagle eye and i guess its nt bad, but yeah.. predictable and stuff at parts, bt not too bad as a whole.

will be getting confined this weekend.. guess i tried my best to enjoy before losing freedom ya? hope everything goes well and time fly.

cya guys in 12 days ya.

hidden away from the world.

The feeble Life.

2008-10-01T19:29:00.002+08:00

Grim. Very grim.
Another one drop like flies.
Something quite freaky.
So close to what i do.
Its not about limits.
Or about how u stop if u know u cant.
Shit happens.
Thats the fact.

How would i know i'm next?
Or when i'll drop?
Its all too good now.
I'm just starting to enjoy it.

Lets just hope the higher power thinks so too.
Grim. eh?

Life as a PNSF

2008-09-28T14:15:00.002+08:00

apart from the hair, nothing much is different. i still walk like a robot.. careless still.. but opened up a whole new social circle.

everyone knows someone in each other's social circle i tell ya..

and yeah.. finally have achieved sorta balanced life. enjoying my weekends and slogging my weekdays. so yeah. if wanna meet up tell me in advance ya. hahah

going back in a few hours alrd. then back to the same communal lifestyle. shit happens. but hopefully less on me and my squad.

nt feeling too good actually. but i hope i can persist and not miss out much. hope i don get worst and survive everything.

i know i'm fortunate.. and i hope i get to stay that way..

and i'll be ready to tackle anything that comes.

stop whining and be a man.

The legendary black pork.

2008-09-02T00:00:00.003+08:00

after my initial encounter with the kurobuta black pork, loved it. but somehow failed to conquer it.

here's today's practice run.. hmmm

abit charred.. but pink on the inside..

a little bit more maybe?

hmm.. making brownies and ice cream tmr.. hope all goes well. and that my dear will enjoy herself too.

2 more days?

Limit

2008-08-28T23:28:00.003+08:00

I am officially at my limit. Although i still slp at least 6hrs.. i'm not feeling too fine now.

lefts see list of accomplishments

moved office,taught tuition, made brownies, became office boy, did a truck load of data entry, prepared stuff for RAFFLES II, made new friends, met old ones, ate alot, learn how to use photocopier, made chocolates, fell in love with my new Bose QC 3 headphones =)

Here's the beauty =)

Sleek, Slim without losing the amazing quality.

Makes the old one feel like shit. and this beauty blocks out sound like no one's business. makes noise feel so yesterday. =)

anyway. to not digress.. tmr is my last day and i shld have caused my colleagues to spent a bomb on my meals. and rlly thank them for taking so much care of me.. =)

hope the chocs meet your expectations. and yeah. i've learnt so much.

Rest is in my reach. one last week to enjoy. before my life rlly changes.

and i hope u'll be there with me. 8)

Chill out time

2008-08-17T22:26:00.005+08:00

Finally, after a long long week of work, i finally get my wonderful break. dinner at aston's prime and stay over at sx hse.

and of course. cam whoring. =) enjoy

The usual 3 old folks, posing for this one.. we look normal.. don we?

Of course we arent.. watch those hands ya? hahaha

only we are capable of such retarded gestures.

Somehow aud and i have gone a long way. since FO and all.. but yeah. contempt is universal. haH

i think we're just born for the cameras. except me of course.. lack that special.. GIFT. hahah

The beauties for the night. I had the black angus with nice red wine marinate.. and the cool and exotic one was the black pork aka kurobuta pork which rlly tasted like beef.. despite porky origins. hahahah

The girls were there too la. but i guess it just that i wasnt in a picture mood that night.. so didnt take with all the gals.. but i guess i have something to make it all better.

I got the interesting idea of painting the nails of the first fella who fell aslp. and yeah. the gals had lotsa fun out of it. Don worry. only finger and toe nails were harmed. and yeah.. don that shade of pink bring out alex's feminism? hahaha

SingFest 08

2008-08-03T23:27:00.002+08:00

Whoo whoo!

Ok. u guys shld know that went for singfest. Didnt get tix. but enjoyed it like i can. hahah.

First night went to catch lost prophets.. kinda alone.. but i guess that would have been me like a year ago if there werent anything exciting changes in my life.

Not quite a fan so i only enjoyed the rooftops song. felt that the system sucked and not cool enough. so i was desperate to get my hands on tix for sunday.

as u guys have know, the sunday tix is like impossible to get.. sold out a week ago, with new 300 tix to the alrd sold 10 000 tix. cost like 250 for each too. madness.

so i decided to get some when sistic opened, but was convinced not too.

then.. we kinda made pancakes for brunch, ate more food and prep for the lil picnic at singfest.

hahah i meant lil when i say it. cause we saw a bunch of pep with this huge picnic basket.. madness.

so we were there watching like jamie scott and the town, one republic, panic, and most importantly jason mraz. he rocked. seriously. the trumpet player too.. but everything was tight band, singing.. even the crowd. sgreans was damn high la. good atmosphere.

then of course.. had our share of jokes, ant bites and laughs.. something that will be hard to forget..

Wonderful memories forged today.

030808 0830

Yours truely?
=)

I stand by my word.

2008-07-30T12:09:00.002+08:00

I still don believe in fatigue.

If u sleep right,

Work right,

You can never be tired.

As long as u have something to look forward to,

The energy will just ooze out of you.

U might feel the strain, but never get taken over by fatigue.

Yeah i know, what does the jobless guy know?

Its all psychological.

How can i convince?

If all goes well i have 2 jobs, commitments and maybe something or someone else to fuss about.

I'll put myself to the test and will update. =)

Theres no such thing as fatigue

Another week gone by

2008-07-28T00:52:00.003+08:00

Coolness. 4 out of 7 days in a week.

So many things have happened.

So many things cleared.

So many new opportunities and so many new hopes.

The future is unfolding slowly..

and its true, sometimes u cant make it on your own?

Glad at least theres pep with me. =)

Small Step to Professionalism

2008-07-25T10:15:00.008+08:00

Yesterday was the first and formal brownie making day at my aunt's hse.
An order by a friend of mine for gifts, so i decided to try to run a pseudo-business.
The look of the beauty in the oven , can see lil bit of choc swirls and stuff.. and yeah.. its savoury.. somehow.. haH

Kinda taught her to pipe out the names of her colleagues and this is what it looks like after completion. not bad for a first time. =) i couldnt have done better.

Other than brownies i had an order for chocs from my aunt. and i finally found that orange peel i wanted. so yeah. i gave the grandmarnier choc a makeover. this is what the new and improved version looks like. =)

Made 3 sets of 8 pieces, 4 types.
The regulars will be able to tell which i made.
As seen below, we have toasted coconut truffles, my trademark chivas whiskey truffles and the new and improved grand marnier truffle.
Not seen below is the araguani dark choc truffle.

Upclose and personal.. coconut truffle. They look much more sunshine this time. toasted the coconut a lil longer, brings out the taste too. =)

My chivas truffle was the hardest to work with for this batch, very runny, but i was quite happy with the end product. arty curves and all

The final product. finally one that really looks like a gift. hahaha and yeah.. i like the outcome although i want to put more work into the grandmarnier one.. hahaha
Hope the lucky pep getting them like them. =)

Thursday Mornings

2008-07-24T08:18:00.005+08:00

Emo?

Nah.

Just Low.

Brownie day.

Hope i wont crash.

Have to finish what i agree to.

And the stress of perfection is always present.

What would i do without...

You

Change

2008-07-19T00:49:00.002+08:00

What can change in a week.

What rollercoasters

What revelations

Just watched P.S i love you on DVD today.

Made ice cream and just spent time with someone again.

I know its usually not me to mention details.

But i guess i'll just change that.

Tell me your fears and i'll free you from them.
As much as my humanly capabilities.

P.s. Dark Knight is damn nice.
Evil has never felt the same.
But yeah. the life columnist spoiled everything for me.
Except for the wonder performance for Joker.
Why So Serious?

Eternal sunshine of the spotless mind

2008-07-17T09:48:00.003+08:00

I thought i was going through one of my vicious cycles of getting happy.. then emo then all together again.

But somehow.. i'm realli inspired.

I just finished watching eternal sunshine of the spotless mind.

I guess i wont be able to relate as well if i had watched it earlier.

And sad to say for me.

I have to go back on my word and not piss off for a whole week.

Whimpy i know. but i guess i really have to put down my pride if i really want to make things right.

The sign came at the right time. Even Nietzsche was there.

Blessed are the forgetful: for they get the better even of their blunders

But we shall not forget intentionally, for our memories and experience proves our existence.

To C. maybe we can just enjoy it?

Somehow its just always be Us and our heads huh.

Detox day 1

2008-07-17T07:00:00.002+08:00

Somehow i only managed to get 3 hrs of sleep.

Stuff somehow came together.

Indigestion.

Insomnia.

cant really find another word starting with "I"

Msged nicole when till lik 2+3?

at leasts thats the last thing i remembered.

and a weird dream with strangers and ice cream.

insanity is just a stone throw away

Back to the tragic humor

2008-07-17T00:15:00.002+08:00

I always believed in this.

Tragic irony.

Romeo and Juliet dies because of miscommunication.

And words coming back to haunt you.

I've always wanted to find my muse.

I've found her.

But is she mine?

Can u HAVE one?

Its always funnier in retrospective

Lifehouse-Broken

2008-07-16T00:10:00.003+08:00

The Broken clock is a comfort
It helps me sleep tonight
Maybe it can stop tomorrow
From stealing all my time
And I am here still waiting
Though I still have my doubts
I am damaged at best
Like you've already figured out

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing
In your name
I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you

The broken locks were a warning
You got inside my head
I tried my best to be guarded
I'm an open book instead
And I still see your reflection
Inside of my eyes
That are looking for purpose
They're still looking for life

I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
Is there healing
In your name I find meaning
So I'm holding on
I'm barely holding on to you
I'm hanging on another day
Just to see what, you will throw my way
And I'm hanging on, to the words you say
You said that I will, will be okay

The broken light on the freeway
Left me here alone
I may have lost my way now
But I haven't forgotten my way home
I'm falling apart
I'm barely breathing
With a broken heart
That's still beating
In the pain
There is healing In your name
I find meaning So I'm holding on
Barely holding on to you
Barely holding on to you

What do u do when u see the end coming?
Make it less painful?
Or make the most out of it?

Move Along

2008-07-14T23:06:00.001+08:00

I know i've moved on from pain.

Regret

and Dispair.

But am i still holding on to useless scrap emotions

just Let go.

and Move along with life?

Easier said than done

Busy?

2008-07-13T20:08:00.002+08:00

Hahah.. sometimes. things just happen and take their place in your life.

In the coming 2 weeks, will be going for one day tour thing with my family,

work on 2 separate creation for and with new friends.

and still carry out my weekly commitments like tuition with marc,

meeting the old folks,

and my 1 special day of indulgence.

hahah. i don really have much time unless i remain jobless for next 2 months.

although i might not get the job, i kinda hope i don too.

since everyone is stopping soon.

and i'll have more time whipping myself into shape.

hmmm

and the most impt problem.

lets see how it works out

Succumb to the Inner Geek

2008-07-13T11:42:00.001+08:00

hahaha..

Wanted to do a simple entry about how i finished watching Dexter after the past month.

Its a seriously great series, with nudity and gore of course.. but yeah.. something that i really enjoyed watching.

and i did "some" surfing, which by that means i clicked on the first site i googled.

and i found this =)

Another Week

2008-07-12T09:47:00.003+08:00

Time pass fast. Was home for arnd a week, met colleagues for lunch on monday. More Muffins.

Back to being domesticated. Cooked. And did some thinking.

But stuff don't turn out as u expected it right.

Got a temp job on fri, sticking stickers but i guess anything's fine with pay.

met the usual old folks on friday night.. orchard. finally tasted the soba place i wanted to.

and yeah. lucky me got a nice choice...

But sadly good reviews werent throughout the panel. HaH.

My Soba in duck Broth. damn nice =)

The Mandarin Orange peel brings a little twist and brings out the broth well.

The Duck meat too. Damn fattening. But flavourful. muahahah..

like what i always say. Eat Well, die young.

Thats the way to go. =)

Random.

2008-07-06T21:47:00.002+08:00

bas·tard (bstrd)
n.
1. A child born out of wedlock.
2. Something that is of irregular, inferior, or dubious origin.
3. Slang A person, especially one who is held to be mean or disagreeable.

Just wanted to find the definition of something we commonly use to describe people.. like all men are bastards.. so.. hmm.. am i one?

I don feel like being sensitive now.

Something is wrong?

Am i always Emo?

2008-07-06T02:34:00.001+08:00

hahah. Tell me if u can catch what i'm getting at.

Solitude

2008-07-04T04:22:00.002+08:00

What do you do when you're alone?

Although we usually judge people by how they look , their actions or how they carry themselves,

I believe the one true way to judge oneself is by the harshest critique, which is simply, yourself.

Only you know how good, bad or beyond good or bad you are.

When you face yourself, and the higher being if you believe exist, that would be the one true judgement of character.

Been immersed in the Ubermensch concept a little too much , but i believe that one can live by their own rules and own definition of good and bad, although if those definitions often clash with the real world's.

The idea on its own is destructive enough. but i guess. Its evolution.

For a higher being, free spirit or whatever u call it, solitude is the way out. To gain objectivity, isolate yourself from the herd and maybe then make something good.

Something good for you? the herd or just something.

Maybe only then you can pull away from mediocrity and have the chances of attaining excellence?

I would hope to believe so. But its a fact that no man is an island, the whole basic concept of humans is that we are social creatures. Or is it so?

I don't know enough exceptions to make an example. But i believe that its possible to incorporate a social life within the Ubermensch life. Life amongst others.

But share the life with another?

I'm not too sure about that.

Delicate life to the study of life, but not lose focus?

Sounds challenging.

Too challengin?

Fundamental Question

2008-07-04T04:20:00.001+08:00

Can both - and philosophy coexist?

Or is solitude the one and only way for objectivity?

Can i ever give up either one entirely?

Only Time can answer my questions.

Updates

2008-07-03T00:03:00.002+08:00

Think although i believe no one reads this crap,

but there are occasional blog stalkers here.. so here are the updates.

as of 1/7/08

i'm jobless. again. projected ended. and all the hoo ha and false hope of continuing to earn money for 2 months on the very last day of my work.

if u want my long story i can tell ya.

after this work experience, i believe i have learn much more.

like how to dial extension numbers and have 3 coffee breaks plus 1 lunch break. haH

ok. maybe 2. hahah

new friends, interesting new friends, and new cans of worms!

yes worms, worms that u wont get in contact with when i'm stuck in my little own world with a stove, tv set and a PC.

hahah. yeah

will be meeting up with people. talking. and maybe get back to exercising and prep for army.

counting down to my deadline.

Life is more meaningful if u take it as ur last.

Do and don't regret. But be responsible for others ya.

haha. i sound so old.

Fark

2008-06-26T22:17:00.006+08:00

De javu?

No matter how well i try to protect my stuff.

Someone else always comes along and wreak havoke.

The first guitar.

A hole under the body of the freaking guitar.

Now the 2nd

My favorite of the few.

Drop

Finish cracked

String broke

Farking bad shape.

Its not you fault!

Fark

It cant be clearer than this.

2008-06-25T13:04:00.004+08:00

Hmm. Photocopies supposed be cool right?

No matter how much philo i read,

This is what i live by.

Success

2008-06-25T11:05:00.002+08:00

Hahaha.. version 1.0 of the Fudge brownie failed and gave me pudding.

It tasted ok. but texture was like sludge.

Thick chocolate sludge.

hahaha. but version 2.0 was fine. very fine indeed.

Reduced sugar, added nuts and reduced choc chips. it was nice. =)

hahaha. baked till perfection. less fudgy than expected. but at least it was moist.

and yeah. thou my strawberry ice cream came up alil sour, due to the excess lemon juice,

i think its fine. thats why it tasted like yogurt? hahaha.

and the surprise wasnt ruined. so yeah. what more can i want?

Count your blessings.

Although what i always believed in is back to haunt me,

i think its ok if everything remains balanced ya?

hahah.

more brownies by this week.

and maybe chocolates too.

Hope i get to see you soon?

=)

V for Volatile

2008-06-23T10:33:00.002+08:00

Somehow.

The active lifestyle is taken the toil on me.

temper flare damn fast.. get affected easily by sarcastic comments.

reasons.. lack of sleep? nothing comforting? i think the hectic schedule of the pseudoelitist is the cause. haH

lets see.. tuition twice a week. a mini project for me each week(just to keep me occupied and sane.. and meet up with friends. hahaha

i'll tell you guys about what i've accomplished when i do.

work's almost completed.. and i have time for my projects.. hmmm

but yeah. was planning to carry out stuff when i met up with wayne and played the guitar at my hse till 5 am the next day. hahaha. stayed over at my hse of course..

then i picked my ass up to buy fridge(s) with mum and aunt at novena.. while wayne picked his up to go to sentosa. hahah

guess what. after everything, we met up again with alex and sx.. i met them only aft dinner and went for drinks at.. guess where.. balcony.. where we visited our favorite waitress mandy and had lotsa fun as usual. hahaha ended up home at 4+

sunday was fine.. slept til 1. continued project and that was almost it. hahaha

weekends are longer if u sleep less. drink more. hahah. but yeah. monday is like stoning day after that. haH

now.. i just have to wait and see what this week has installed for me.

and yeah. addicted on Oasis- don't look back in anger.

damn nice song..

whoo whooo

kinda broke for the week, and something tells me that my body is screwd up. hmm..

Mood swings

2008-06-15T16:31:00.004+08:00

Work was great.

Had help from an unfortunate aqquaintance whom i end up being very greatful.

I'll be done with work much sooner than expected.

More of life for me.

Finally.. i get to meet pep after work.

But i still wanna work OT thou.

hmm..

Blew my temper once again.

i guess i only do that when i've met pep whom i care about.

normally i cant be bothered with even just anyone to get that pissed.

but the brightside was that i enjoyed that bot of sake so much i ended up waking up at 430, 630 and finally 855 to shut off my alarm which was supposed to ring at 9.

one week. thats all u need to have a change in ur life.

lets see what next week gives me.

so yeah.. for those who care about me.

my friends.

i can get emo.

but i can bounce right back too.

don worry.

i have to pick myself up sometime.

sooner or later.

Nobody likes me & You and I Both - Jason Mraz

To Xinru

2008-06-15T10:54:00.002+08:00

Hmm.. i guess its right.

The vicious cycle is back.

Emo time.

Maybe worst this time.

Really feeling it this time.

Freud

2008-06-14T23:30:00.002+08:00

Freud would say that this feeling is linked to some childhood trauma.

I say he's right.

I can remember that specific incident.

From then on i hate getting others into trouble.

Alot.

Even if there's feelings involved

I'll just throw it all away.

Its the one and only thing i do best.

Time for self-destruction.

Let it burn. let it burn

When theres no body

2008-06-11T07:43:00.001+08:00

When you stop.

and think

under the mrt track

in the rain.

Why are u here?

Who has your back?

No one.

Welcome to my life

3 years of my life gone

2008-05-31T00:03:00.003+08:00

Graduation.

A day that i didnt expect to come.

I went to sch to meet lex and wayne who were alrd photowhor-ing.. and started to take pics with them. hahah

then it was time for our ceremony. 3 yrs. familiar faces all arnd.. memories came back just like that.

You future is a piece of white paper. Unwritten. Many people found the speech boring. but i found it inspiring. like.. VEry?

hahah.. after that was cool. more photo whor-ing with class mates.. we even too 1 with ms chan.. sandra and i..

then we went to return the gown and stuff.. in the rain. and yeah.. more updates bout each other.. then soon we were done with it and we went vivo.. thai express again.. 10% off just seem so attractive. hahah

then we went star bucks to talk and stuff.. truth or dare with zhong zi mi ma.. the usual.. alot of hidden secrets revealed.. esp like my deep dark ones . hahahah... but yeah.. maybe i don like confrontation but.. yeah.. maybe after 3 yrs should end on happy note? but yeah.. shall update to know who's getting married or who shot gun.

Hope its not me.
Alvin
Cya in 2010.

Swim or Die.

2008-05-24T07:34:00.002+08:00

Juz came back from drinking session with wayne alex and sx.

had dinner at crystal jade. damn difficult to find the specific one out of the 4.

haH.

After that went to TCC for coffee. waited for lex.

Kaffee-tini is gay. Lambo still best drink there.

Then went to pee. and ended up at Balcony again.

Pee-ed. and started first round of drinks. screwdriver, whiskey coke. one jug each. hahah

talked rubbished and drank... then i craved for more. tried this whiskey macallan 12 or something on rocks. not bad. smooth. nice aftertaste.

but cool part i'm still here.

no slp.

NUS open house.

I'm going alone. Hang over? and yeah. have to see how i adapt now.

the talks i wanna listen to is like from 2 onwards.. slpy time? hahah. hope i don disgrace myself. haH.

aunt house after that. need to make the bruchettas and all. hope i don screw it up and burn down her kitchen. wish me luck.

Sometimes u just have to function by instinct. by pass ur brain. swim. or die.

Would u eat cardboard with me?

2008-05-22T01:01:00.001+08:00

I have tasted wonderful food.
With wonderful people.

But i always believed the person whom shared the pleasant food memories share suffer along with me when i chew on cardboard to make ends meet.

thats when u know u have met the person u would be with for the rest of ur life.

True or not?

Only time well tell.

My rhythm is back up.

Don worry peps. i'm not emo anymore.

Just awake.

No more delusions.

-Human.

Creep.. again

2008-05-20T19:54:00.002+08:00

Somehow i just relate to this song.. aint it just poetry?

When you were here before,
Couldn't look you in the eye
You're just like an angel,
Your skin makes me cry

You float like a feather
In a beautiful world
I wish I was special
You're so very special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here

I don't care if it hurts,
I wanna have control
I want a perfect body
I want a perfect soul
I want you to notice
When I'm not around
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here, ohhhh, ohhhh

She's running out the door
She's running out
She run run run run...run...

Whatever makes you happy
Whatever you want
You're so very special
I wish I was special

But I'm a creep,
I'm a weirdo
What the hell am I doin' here?
I don't belong here
I don't belong here...

I just need something to take up my time

2008-05-20T00:26:00.003+08:00

Maybe its true.

I'm not in love with what i have desired.

But in the desires themselves.

I'm so freak bored.

Maybe i'll just try my hand at fixing that freaking oven.

Wanted to bake brownies today..

and yeah the piece of shit oven kinda showed me that it was live.

i touched the rack and it went Bzzzz. Ouch

I touched it a second time. Bzzz. ouch.

no more third. but i just found it weird that it went up to 230 yest.. something is damn wrong.

why did the bulb blow?

and did i do something wrong?

anyhow.. i think i'll check it out again. tmr

when i'm alone at home.

but don fear. i try to not get myself killed.

Yesterday Today Tomorrow

2008-05-18T14:04:00.002+08:00

Met up with xinru yest.

After an interesting choc tasting session with aunt and mum.

Talked about alot.. had dinner.

Updates updates updates.

Somehow.. maybe its just the both of us.

or that we just arnt mainstream.

the stuff we do. the way we pursue education.

girls and all.

but yeah..

at the end of the day.. its the process and whether we get there.

I'm at an important point in my life.

I'm going into the army. I have university applications waiting for me.

But yeah.. it would all be so nice if i have someone to share it with me.

but yeah.. u cant always get what u want yeah?

So i guess. its only me and my frens here then.

hahah.. maybe i shall make a pact with myself.

Settle down only when i get there.

and theres a freaking winding road.

donno who i'll meet along the way..

but i just hope it works out fine.

My future.

Wait for me.

I Just Is.

2008-05-17T00:06:00.002+08:00

I started my journey in pursuit of a wonderful article with meaning.

Armed with my books, a pen and a note book,

I went to find a corner where my thoughts could flow.

Nothing came out.

And then i went to meet wayne and saw people at the club.

Then it all came to me.

Inspiration do not only come to me from text.

Philosophy is about life. and thats what i write about.
-Here it goes

Change

Got reminded by Nietzsche about people.

How we are undefined. How humans just.. is.

No its not a grammer mistake. we just cant be defined by others, until we have defined ourselves.

For some.. it is the lack of change, the style or personality that defines who he or she is.

But for me. Its the ability of change that defines me.

When i was talking to a fren, i saw how someone else failed to change. after 3 whole years and the person had the same troubles as before.

And the first thing that came to my mind shocked me.

I have grown so much. changed so much that i actually think that i'm quite proud.

For the close friends who have been with me at my weakest moments. Dealing with breakdowns of emotions.. the after effects of the implosion. and that one truely scarring incident.

I survived it. I grew out of it. and i'm not the same sicko as before. Sick still no matter. But i am sure i have come a long long way.

As a person. i have learnt to put away my past and move on. Even with skills i have learnt amazing stuff. Who knew i could learn how to make chocolates? What about desserts from scratch? my culinary skills aint that good but it will grow.. at least i hope..

and yeah.. somehow.. i have done it without any specific motivating factor..

which comes to the next point.

what now? how do i change even more to get better?

i shall spell this out to everyone.

I have always been at the mercy of my emotions. temporary highs coming and going.. along with people in my life. infatuation.. crushes and all nonsensical.

explains my mood swings. but i have always thought that i wouldnt survive without periods of temporary highs.

I always believed that i needed muses to inspire to make wonderful creations, no matter if its food chocolates or even art.

I want to change that.

I want to change not because of some random girl but for myself.

I want to change and prove that its all in me. and not anyone else.

I want to change and get myself out of this vicious cycle.

I have done so much without noticing. and i didnt need any girl to get me through.

The only people i thank is my frens. Those who stood by me throught the hard times.

And those who just happen to be there.

Thank you. And i promise i'll offer much much more in the future.

No matter how far that will be.

To the future me: Never take anyone for granted. Remember to Count your blessings.

Miss me? I'm back

2008-05-14T22:49:00.003+08:00

Hmm.. after that very inspirational turn of events...

alot of creative juice flowed in terms of food..

to the point i need to recover from loss of fluids.

hahah

welcome my objectivity back.

Delusional were similar to the euphoria of love...

but i guess.. they are called delusions for a reason.

Lets just get rid of them and get on with life ya?

Mother's day Feast

2008-05-12T09:38:00.004+08:00

Hmm.. Wanna avoid the chaos during mothers day? Need somewhere to dine? Cook for your mum then!. hahah

okay.. it wasnt too fantastic.. something was wrong.. maybe i did too many things at once.. so the food didnt turn out as perfect as i wanted.

First.. appetizers... Baby cherry Buchetta with parsley, and mixed garden salad =)

The starters......

Up close... my salad =)

Close up of half eaten buchetta =)

Then we had the main course.. wanted a lil fusion food. Japanese Miso Risotto with Black pork chops with Buffalow Sauce..

Yeah. thats it.. quality not as cool though.. over cooked the pork.. risotto lack the OoompH. but yeah.. i guess.. the food cant be perfect every single time ya?

Happy Mothers Day!

2008-05-08T22:48:00.005+08:00

Mday Set of 6 =)

Hmm.. What have i been up to? Here's the proof.. Made chocs for all my aunts and mums and all.. supposed to be a secret still so.. Shhhh.. hahah

A Set of 6.. Each with its own personality and taste.. so start drooling ya

Strawberry Cup Surprise!
-Valrhona Ivoire white chocolate with Strawberry Liquer
with a 55% Equitorial Dark Chocolate with Fresh strawberries Puree

Coconut Truffle
-Classic Coconut Truffle using Valrhona Ivoire White Chocolate with a Coconut Cream Ganache
(Favorite Item =)

Dark Chocolate Truffle
-65% Valrhona Manjari Dark Chocolate Ganache finished by 55% Equitorial chocolate and Valrhona Cocoa Powder

Grand Marnier Truffle
- 55% Valrhona Equitorial chocolate Ganache infused with Grand Marnier, finished using Equitorial Chocolate and Dark Chocolate Flakes

Dark Lemon Squares
-Lemon infused Ivoire White chocolate filled Squares finished with Valrhona 55%Equitorial Chocolate

Mango Yogurt Truffle
-Mango infused filling made from Mango Puree and Yogurt encased in Dark chocolate Shell.

Woah.. that was the intro.. and yeah.. Potential investors out there.. TAG ME! haahha

Chocolate Oracle

2008-05-08T22:04:00.001+08:00

Compliments from Cedric =)

What Your Taste in Chocolate Says About You

You are sophisticated, modern, and high class.

Your taste is refined, but you are not picky.

You are often the first to try something new.

You are driven and focused. You crave success.

A total perfectionist, you hold yourself to high standards.

While you life a charmed life, people feel like you are too hard on them.

You love the feeling of accomplishment. You enjoy doing what's important.

You feel lost when you have to do frivolous tasks or hang out with shallow people.

The Chocolate Oracle

Lunch Date with Alvin

2008-05-08T00:32:00.002+08:00

MmmMMmm.. hahah

This Pea and Lemon Risotto combi has been something i've wanted to try for some time liao.. nicely acidic.. with a wee bit of lemon zest.. and some celery that someone realli didnt like to eat. hahah.. but i still managed to forced it down her throat. hahah

The Duka thingy.. maybe spelled wrongly as corrected by my Ma.. is damn nice and easy to use. brilliant dried herbs.. sesame.. and all.. Grilled on my New Tefa Grill pan.. Shiok. hahah.. Everyone loved it.. =)

Kinda forgot to cook rice for dinner.. so i whipped this out.. more Pork loins.. with the same Duka mix.. but i changed the risotto to Pea and Celery Sauteed in butter.. and chicken stock.. like using the remainder of my stuff.. so.. yeah.. it was nice.. and economical. =)

Did i mention Korean Strawberries are damn gorgeous? You guys will be seeing what i did to them soon =)

Shit happens.. Bad luck's back. But Its aint that bad ya? hahah

Quiz quiz quiz

2008-05-05T23:35:00.002+08:00

Was darn bored.. then i went to yxian's blog.

Went to do this quiz thingy..

hmm.. so am i trying to fit the circle into the square hole?

Your view on yourself:
Other people find you very interesting, but you are really hiding your true self. Your friends love you because you are a good listener. They'll probably still love you if you learn to be yourself with them.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
You like to flirt and behave seductively. The opposite sex finds this very attractive, and that's why you'll always have admirers hanging off your arms. But how serious are you about choosing someone to be in a relationship with?

Your views on education:
Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can.

The right job for you:
You have plenty of dream jobs but have little chance of doing any of them if you don't focus on something in particular. You need to choose something and go for it to be happy and achieve success.

How do you view success:
Success in your career is not the most important thing in life. You are content with what you have and think that being with someone you love is more than spending all of your precious time just working.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

So how was it? try it http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

The number 23

2008-05-05T22:59:00.005+08:00

What looks like a freaky supernatural flick... but ends up with a nice philosophical finish.

The narration gave it all away in the end.. and used another medical condition for the explanation. Hypergraphia in this case.

The battle between the one's past.. and whether the bloody leopard can change its spots...

Blah blah. what stood out was the "One truely philosophical question.." of whether one should take their own life.. So Camus.. and i believe that.. cause.. Death is easy.. and too easy?

How our mind makes sense of nonsense... thats why i don believe myself.

I don believe in reality..

I don believe that everything is fixed..

I'm just fiction of my own imagination.

Hanging By a Moment

2008-05-03T02:52:00.001+08:00

Its all different now.

2008-05-02T12:25:00.002+08:00

Found it on linda's blog.

The significance it used to have. The one and only song that i couldnt stand during that period.

Its all over now.

its Just A Song.

Go AHEAD.. DROOL!

2008-05-01T23:53:00.002+08:00

Yes. The Calorie King has just went for Yes.. ANOTHER chocolate course. This time for more molding and stuff.. After the previous truffle course.. this one is a belgium chocolate course..

Above.. Maschino cherries dipped in dark choc..

I like the flower one.. looks damn pro. but i kinda have to pay 100 bucks for the mold... and much much more for investment. Will get that if i go pro. hahahah like never?

Near the finish products also.. like so many rite? but the aunties were super kiasu.. so yeah.. i didnt get much. don care. GIVE THEM THE CALORIES! hahah

Finally. The Chef's tray of all creations today. From 3 types of chocolates.. a gazillion molds.. and 2 kinds of truffle shells. u can realli make alot ya? hahah

But never take granted the process of making chocs. cause i'll always remember the techniques.. how tough it is.. especially to clean up. hahahah.. a lil of the mess for u to see. hahaha

Leave u guys something nice to look at. =)

Sheryl + Dad Bday

2008-04-29T22:03:00.004+08:00

Happy birthday Sheryl and Dad..

had a wonderful dinner at Grill Out at Sunset way.. Good meat.. real good. hahah

Wonderful New Zealand T-bone Lamb chops for me.. cause i kinda got sick of steak. hahah

yeah.. tastes so light.. delicate.. and refreshing with the mint and pomelo or grapefruit thingy side. Drool drool drool.. hahah

but yeah. going to work harder to keep my weight and not get overweight before army. hahah

I like my life. =)

HL milk.

2008-04-28T14:21:00.002+08:00

Sometimes.. i believe a lil too much in my fortunes.. horoscopes.. and all.. but i believe it will hurt more when u just don believe.

My fortune for this year will be that i will have Highs and Lows throughout the year.. and that my old aliment will be back to haunt me. hahah..

when they say like.. respiratory distress or something on the line of "don drink cold water" you kinda get the idea. hahah

I'm super super low now. back to a pt at which i don have a plan. get another job? watch days go by? i don even have my enlistment letter yet.. and yeah.. whether my army will be in time for my uni applications.. ???????? yeah... thats what i feel now.

i don like to not be in control. And its back to my solitary life. Hopefully i get an idea soon. If not i'll go nuts.. again?

Full of highs and lows. When they mean high.. its DAMN high.. but low.. also DAMN Low.. Thats life for me anyway..

i shall enjoy the last bit of freedom. straighten most things out before getting in... but.. the story is still unwritten? hahah will see whether there will be a premature ending..

The Milk in the glass is half empty right now.

Dinner.

2008-04-24T22:10:00.002+08:00

Muahahah.. dinner.. my first attempt at steak. first one kinda failed.. uncooked on the inside.. over cooked after popping into oven. then.. i slowly got it.. 1.45 on each side on my new tefal redspot grill pan.. then pop into oven for like 2 mins.. medium rare.. yay!. taste wonderful. hahah..

but yeah. i smell like chicken and steak.. so yummy.. and oily.. hahah

Life's wonderful rite now. lets stay this way? or it can onli get better =)

Hard work and Good food.

2008-04-24T18:28:00.003+08:00

Was looking forward to more of my cooking and finally some great food.

and yeah.. there i was shopping for nice ingredients all over the place.. now... its all worth it. hahah

Today on the menu

Entree: Grill Buffalo Chicken Fillet with Risotto Bianco.

Dessert: Grand Marnier Mousse using Valrhona Equitorial 55%.

Muahahaha.. my beloved plate with the face and after that with that grilled chicken and risotto. stuff the fella's mouth. hahah

Acompanying it was that first time attempt of chocolate mousse of mine with the best valrhona chocolate.. grand marnier and digestive crumbles.. mmMmmm Delish. hahah

Something to leave the entry with. No matter how expensive or exquisite the food is.. the company whom u eat with is more important.

Enjoy =)

Late night emo

2008-04-24T00:53:00.002+08:00

Ups and Downs.
I can be so high up and so low the next instant.
Just give me strength.
Let me believe that i'm not wrong.
If i can just prove that you.
Are just the one i'm looking for.

A New Day

2008-04-22T00:37:00.002+08:00

A new cause

Something i haven been expecting.. for me to get into uni. for me to actually make it to a point where i can again fight for my dream... my future my life.

A new aim

Make it into science. balance up my life. leave my past behind. learn more skills in life. get to where i want to be.

A new life

Life in the army? get used to it. adapt. like what we are meant to do. not only to survive. but to thrive and grow. go in a freakin sissy. come out a man.

A new inspiration

Make more wonderful creations, learn to use different mediums for expression. awe the world. =)

A new sensation

Feel, breath and taste life. Enjoy it while the senses tingle. Try things i haven... new flavours smells and experiences. i want a share in Everything.

A new tomorrow

Look forward to that tomorrow. Anticipate while awe and enjoy the surprises life gives you. Live life and love living. Live with no regrets.

A new alvin

Add them all up and i'll be the sum of everything. That defines me. I am what i experience, think and do. Thats what i'm all about.

Middle of the night.

2008-04-21T01:04:00.001+08:00

Stumbled over this. lets see if i'm right. can be contradictory.. cause its just throwing the net everywhere so that u'll at least agree to SOMETHING.. hahah

What Alvin Means

You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection.

You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive.

You have the classic "Type A" personality.

You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow.

You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily.

Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

You are very hyper. You never slow down, even when it's killing you.

You're the type of person who can be a workaholic during the day... and still have the energy to party all night.

Your energy is definitely a magnet for those around you. People are addicted to your vibe.

You tend to be pretty tightly wound. It's easy to get you excited... which can be a good or bad thing.

You have a lot of enthusiasm, but it fades rather quickly. You don't stick with any one thing for very long.

You have the drive to accomplish a lot in a short amount of time. Your biggest problem is making sure you finish the projects you start.

You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people.

You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts.

You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Finally.. its over

2008-04-20T23:02:00.003+08:00

7days of work at Lot1. from my bday to the horrendous last day.
a few peps kinda made it nice for me.. hahah
Wayne top the board by appearing 6x a week.
C came like 4... Yx came for the first which was my bday.. ahhaha.. didnt quite appreciate her for that but will do now..

and most imptly ced who spent 5 with me.. entertaining me.. hmm.. actually 7.. he came on his 2 off days too.. hahah.. so cool.. yeah.. without them i'll be damn bored... thnks peps. =)

works resumin coming weekend.. 5 days to rest and enjoy. hahah..weds is nafa day cum cap ball.. so yeah.. it kinda get sliced in half. hahah..

tmr big day too... chocs and finally.. my cooking.. hahah... i miss my cooking.. =)

Nobody likes me... hahaha

2008-04-19T00:12:00.004+08:00

Jason mraz is great. hahah.. he's so good he don have to play much guitar. what a gifted voice. and yeah. Dreadlocks rule.

Thnks Guys

2008-04-13T14:50:00.002+08:00

Hey Hey.. Fri was a cool day.. had dinner with ww sx alex wayne aud and chi chi.. at first wanted marche.. but kinda had that a week ago.. so wasnt too keen.. but still went to queue anyway.. but the damn queue was too long.. so we decided on the 黑社会 place..

it was a chinese restaurant thingy.. but it was cool.. hahaha.. nice food.. quite ex.. but cheaper then marche in the end. hahah

then wayne aud alex and sx came over to my place for ice wine.. 2 bots.. and we stalked friendster. hahah meaningless.. but nevertheless fun.

then we played snake and letters( my present for ww and wayne) with had like shot glasses and stuff. hahaha.. went tru my alcohol stash and got them half drunk... maybe wayne was more than half drunk. hahah

then stone stoned and i got some of the ice cream i made for them.. little taste sessions and all.. and yeah.. finally they hit the sack at 5am cause alex had to work. hahaha..

woke up.. went for ah kun and sent them off... and i went back to slp till 3..

met up with wayne to head to my aunt's hse for food wine and everything nice.. hahah.. before that we visited woodlands checkpt jam.. and went to his fav guitar store.. got myself a glass slide.. hahah another one..

the rest of the nite was all jamming.. eating.. luffing and trying to understand stuff. hahah.. thats an inside look to my life.. my family.. the little door to my world.. hahah

maybe i'll bring someone else the next time.. who knows?

My Master Piece(S)

2008-04-10T00:12:00.002+08:00

YaY.. 2 days of work finally came up with my 4 chocolate designs..

All of them kinda hit me and the inspiration just came =)

This is surely the best batch ever.. 100% Valrhona chocs.. the ex stuff

4 different flavours too..

Pls refer to figure 2 for description.

Top Left Corner : Whitey.. aka White Tropical Dream.. Smooth Creamy White Chocolate with toasted coconut Ganache.. Provides a nice Crunch with the wonderful aroma of the toasted coconut flakes

Bottom Left Corner: Mint Cream Filling covered by wonderful 55% Valrhona Equitorial Chocolate

Top Right Corner: Chivas Ganache Covered in 55% Valrhona Equitorial Chocolate

Bottom Right Corner: Grand Marnier Ganache using 64% Valrhona Manjari Chocolates Covered by 55% Valrhona Equitorial Chocolate dipped in Chocolate Flakes

Hahah.. Go on.. Drool.. My best batch ever.. Whoo Who!

My First Bday Gift

2008-04-07T23:10:00.002+08:00

Woah.. hahah just came back from a havok day.. gym.. then went to sch.. talked with pep.. then went go get adidas voucher from alex.

hahah went shopping at suntec and then vivo to hunt alex's shorts. hahah sounds wrong..

then i went to meet linda and nicole for dinner.. had thai express and then J.Co donuts.. MmmM.. Donuts.. nice.. hahah..

anyway... the main point is that they got me this 101 chocolate treat book.. Nice.. my new found love for cook books.. has like recipes for sorbets and truffles.. (my Fav =) hahah Yay..

Happy with my first Bday gift and just touched that people still remember and put in the effort.. =) thanks gals... hahah.. our friendship will and should last =)

Happy

2008-04-02T20:08:00.003+08:00

Have i ever mentioned that i'm very superficial? material needs make me happy.. like alot..

hahah.. some of my pals went to Hk recently and yeah.. they've got krispy kremes over there.. and yeah.. kinda happy 2 of them remembered bout my materialistic needs and got me some =).. haha and yeah.. i'm sure they'll taste fabulous...

i'll be picking up the rest of my stuff that i asked for soon.. gonna be broke.. like very broke.. hahah

Thanks to those who make the donuts possible yah ! =)

Today's Creation

2008-04-01T20:53:00.004+08:00

Today's creation.. Chocolate chip ice cream.. with rum and peanuts.. hahah

The peanuts were there cause i couldnt focus.. needed abit of crunch so i added some in..

The rum's a lil flat so yeah.. don taste too much.. but its kinda heavy taste on the chocs and coffee.. wanted a deep dark kinda taste and i got that..

Have to practice more to ensure i make some for aunt's gathering.. hmm.. mint and choc chip? yeah sounds good.. had risotto with tomatoe base too.. but pix with rosa.. who is still bz dating some guy.. hahah update later..

To my Love

2008-03-29T23:04:00.002+08:00

To the one that Love.
No matter whether I have known you yet
Or that i have yet to meet you
I would like to know that i'm trying my best to change
And be the Best that i can be

I'll learn the ways to cook wonderful meals
Create wonderful desserts
And do wonderful things when you're arnd

I'll do much better than i have ever thought
Or rather die trying.
You will be my muse
My everything

I'll devote my life to you
but not just in a blind sense
Although i love you
But i still believe that i have to be someone
For the best of the both of us
And maybe our future too

Wait for Me
No matter how long i take
Give me time
I'll make something
Something worth the pursue
Something Wonderful

Wait for me.
Promise me
The girl i've yet to meet,
Or already i have?
I don't know..

But i just know that..
I have to focus on my goals
Get rid of distractions
Even if it spells loneliness

Its worth it..
I know it..
Wait for me.
My love.

FO time again

2008-03-28T22:33:00.002+08:00

FO has always been a reminder of times..
I'm now a Tai Gong.. like great grandpa or something..
this year with 2 grps of great grandkids..
Helped them as much as i could..
let them enjoy also..

One of the grps kinda reminded me of myself..
low.. screwish group..
fought among each other..
exactly what aud and i did.. haha
but yeah.. when those words..
"today much better" came outs..
I finally got my justification for what i have done..
and what significance i had.

Missed cap ball. but i guess it doesnt matter
helped a friend despite losing slp.
i think it wld suffice.
and it did.

And as expected..
the cosmic forces gave me one thing for another
Good news..
for the loss of sleep
Its all balanced..

and i hope it always is.

I have a new favorite movie

2008-03-23T01:09:00.003+08:00

After finally finished catching Stranger than Fiction on HBO.. i have a new movie title to add to the list of favs.

The conclusion was worth waiting and the hidden signs were everywhere.

Existential. and it brings a great msg in the end. Catch it. its good.

Don get put of by the language, watch beyond it and maybe u'll understand the movie better, even without scrutiny on the dialogue.

Why i am not alone.

2008-03-21T23:13:00.002+08:00

No. i am not an altheist.
I believe i'm not alone.
and i believe things happen for a reason.

Serendipity?
Coincidences?
I don think so.

Went to search for her add just because of a gut feeling.
It wasnt there in the heap of emails.
Not anywhere.
Until one day i went tru my tabs.
There it was.
Now its on my table.

She needed my help.
As tough as it seemed.
I gave myself a challange.
There was help from xinru
and esp from that someone else
Which i appreciate alot.
The pieces started falling into place.

On the the train.
Phone rang.
Ooh its dad.
He gave me a lift..
more than that actually.
To about her door step.
and there i was.

5missed calls.
But still kept hoping.
Here came the 6th.
and it did the trick.

now.. 1120.
my bath and slps awaits me.
and soon the start of a new hectic day.
Good luck to me.. tmr.

today

2008-03-20T23:44:00.002+08:00

More Ice cream.. today mint.. did ok.. cool recipe.. but still requires tweeking.
have to thank Yxian for the brownies to go with.. and they realli taste damn nice.. esp with my ice cream.. hahah.. how do the pics look? tell me...,

they arent perfectly shaped because a realli hungry fello wanted them after onli 1 hr of freezing.. supposed to be overnight one la.. hahah.. but yeah.. it will look better tomorrow.. at least i hope.

went for NTU dance concert thingy.. just have to say.. somehow.. aft 3 years of waves... i'm realli spoilt. how dance can be.. and i can actually pick out whats good and bad.. and onli then i thought. crap.. i've been watching realli talented people on stage for 3 years.. esp when the first thing that came was.. cool.. theres so many nics in hip hop... or rach can do much better.. hahah..

but yeah.. this kinda thing is either u make it or dont.. breathe it.. not many can. hahah..

sigh. work tomorrow.. bz time now.. i'll need slp alot of it..

Lil reminder for myself

2008-03-19T01:34:00.000+08:00

Chocolate Jargon:

Praliné - A mixture, often used as a filling, of equal proportions of roasted nuts (almonds, blanched hazelnuts, etc.) and sugar to which chocolate is then added.

Praline - The French and Flemish name for any filled chocolate.

Ganache - A dense and rich chocolate mixture made by combining chocolate and cream or liqueur.

Marzipan - Mixture of ground almond and sugar.

Gianduja - A delicious mixture of melted chocolate, sugar and finely ground roasted hazelnuts.

Lunch with aunt Albin

2008-03-18T00:00:00.006+08:00

yay.. today (finally) had a lunch gathering...

2 pep la.. ok..

better than dining alone.

On the Menu..

Miso Risotto with Grilled Chicken

Looks super amaturish.. but.. taste delish.

Fussy me still think the rice can get a tiny wee bit of cooking to soften the rice a lil..

hahah

And yeah.. its my winnie the pooh plate..

Fine china =X

For dessert... Chocolate Ice Cream with Chivas Whiskey..

Took me quite alot of work to do.. and yeah.. thank god it turned out not bad.. hahah.. more tasters coming tmr..

and yeah.. bigger challenge next wk.. have to complete a nice recipe and make it my own =)

Stop and stare... at ur player

2008-03-16T23:27:00.002+08:00

How to Play

1. Put your music player on shuffle.

2. Press forward for each question.

3. Use the song title as the answer to the question even if it doesn’t make sense. No cheating.

4. With the answers, give your own comments on how it relates to the questions.

5. Tag 5 people.Okay, GO!

How are you feeling today?

hao xing qing (just be yourself) -S.H.E

Just feel like me? hahaha.. feel good also ba

Will you get far in life?

Dang ni li kai de shi hou- Tanya chua

hahah.. is that a yes? onli when someone leaves me ah.. hahah

How do your friends see you?

Zai yi ci yong you - gong shi jia

hahaha this one i donno.. like have me again ah.. maybe its having me arnd too much?

Will you get married?

Kong qiu qian - lin yu zhong

This is like a straight out NO! hahah.. empty swing or something..

What is your best friend’s theme song?

Liang zhi lian ren - Chao Ge

$%^&*( sickening lovebirds.. hahah.. yeah.. quite true ba

What is the story of your life?

Zui zhong yao de xiao shi-mayday

yeah.. my life is made up of the small things that matter.. so true.. hahah

What was high school like?

Thriller - Fallout boy

this one quite funny.. quite true.. thriller.. hahaha

What’s in store for this weekend?

Jiu rang zhe shou ge - Zhang zhen yue

like the song.. loop.. emo.. and just feel sad going tru memories lor.. haha

How’s your life going?

Yuan you hui - j3?

eh.. this one i don understand.. hahah.. maybe not good not bad ba..

How can you get ahead in life?

Sugar we're going down - Fallout boys

by going down... hahah.. crashing ba.. so weird.. so i must fail to suceed.. cheem

What’s the best thing about your friends?

Ai wo bie zou - Zhang zhen yue

they wont leave me? hahah so good rite.. like me then wont leave me.

What song will they play at your funeral?

yi qian ge shi ji- Mayday

wah.. 1000 centuries.. means i'm like super immortal or something.. hahah.. vampire kinda thing

How does the world see you?

Ai qing bu neng zou bi jiao - Pin Guan

aww.. so sweet.. oh.. ai qing ah.. not me.. hahah.. my love cannot be compared.. cheeeesssy...

Do people secretly lust after you?

xie xie ni de wen rou - S.H.E

this means yes pls. but not b'cause of my body or anything.. so sad.. just for being swweeett?

What should you do with your life?

Crazy - Aerosmith

Thanks.. but i'l already crazy.. so.. its a gd thing?

Will you ever have children?

Zai zhe yi miao- Mayday

means.. now? hahah cool.. what bout... NOW!

What song would you strip to?

Xiang xin - Mayday

one of my fav songs.. hahah.. nice swt love song.. but not exactly nice to strip to.

What does your mum think of you?

Wu yue tian - S.H.E

means.. very cool? hahah i donno.. maybe bunch of apes ba.. hahah..

What is your deep, dark secret?

Chong shang tian- mayday

yes.. i'm a momma's boy.. but its not exactly deep dark eh?

What is your mortal enemy’s theme song?

Chao ren - mayday

cool.. my enemy is superman.. swwweeett. means i'm like super villian.. overweight-man

What’s your personality like?

Symphony no. 9 ( Scherzo) - Ludwig van Beethoven

ehh.. typo? schizo ba.. that everyone knows..

What song will be played at your wedding?

Erase\ Replace- Foo Fighters

haha.. means can erase memory and replace with someone else? hahah.. so cool.. kinda insenstive for the bride thou.. hahah

Tag 5..

1. Alex bro

2. Audrey

3. Chi Chi

4. Rosa

5. Yxian

4.50

2008-03-13T21:17:00.003+08:00

Hey peps.. see whether u want to take this job.

Morning opening:

wash juicer
wash used dishes (from the day before)
wash rags
sweep floor
cut fruits

Ah.. opening.. done... now start business...

Beverage station..

Smile to customer who walks away..
Blend fruit juice when customer want..
Cut more fruits to replenish
Serve and cut pizza
Walk out serve customer
Clear customers' crap
Press the F***ing button on hi-fi
Wash more dishes

And you thinks theres no more to be done..

Delivery! go pick up stuff.. move back to kitchen.

Dishes dishes dishes..

and today i got to do something special.. go to a bank and run errands.. =) in the rain!

hahah.. running errands is fun. u can take ur time and waste time.. but not that useful here.

and yeah.. i would have given second thought if the pay was decent. which isnt...

you stand for a whole 8 hours.. and thats what u get.. don justify rite..

so yeah.. my first and last day... hahah

volunteer for one day.. 33 bucks.. don realli matter if they credit that to me.

and realli have to thank the cook for letting me know the insides and getting me an interview. =)

not everyone will take advantage of u.. even at a place like that. people i spent my day with were nice. but i'm there to work and not just to make friends. =)

Bottom of the valley

2008-03-12T21:23:00.002+08:00

Like what i told rosa.
See whether the feeling fades
impluses
desires
and everything deemed stupid.

maybe mr emo is the rite name for me
maybe mr stupid will do fine too
No matter how well the chocs are
how hard u try to play that guitar
at the end of the day u must realli like the person
and resist being with someone just for the sake of not feeling lonely

So.. is it first time? or is it whatever it takes?

My journey starts again.
Probably one that i will embark alone.

Updates

2008-03-11T23:27:00.001+08:00

Got a job at Central.
Life's going to become interesting.
Watched Leap Years.
Not bad.

But is there really a half for me out there?
According to plato?
Can he be wrong?

Or maybe she's just a tete buche..

i might never know...

Whatever it takes

2008-03-10T19:13:00.001+08:00

A strangled smile fell from your face
It kills me that I hurt you this way
The worst part is that I didn't even know
Now there's a million reasons for you to go
But if you can find a reason to stay

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
Believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

She said "If we're gonna make this work
You gotta let me inside even though it hurts
Don't hide the broken parts that I need to see"
She said "Like it or not it's the way it's gotta be
You gotta love yourself if you can ever love me"

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know that I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
And give me a break
I'll keep us together, I know you deserve much better

But remember the time I told you the way that I felt
That I'd be lost without you and never find myself
Let's hold onto each other above everything else
Start over, start over

I'll do whatever it takes
To turn this around
I know what's at stake
I know I've let you down
And if you give me a chance
and believe that I can change
I'll keep us together whatever it takes

The Roach that Just Wont Die.

2008-03-09T22:24:00.002+08:00

打不死的蟑螂

Persistence.
Whatever i do. who i go out with. everything i eat, do.
i think of you.
The pasta don taste as nice as before.
Although the cook is better.

I'm just giving in.
you're back.
at least we're talking.
the little we have...

is enough for me.

my goal: NAPFA silver.
chinups 5-6
standing board jump 232cm
2.4km run 1155

eat right. no chocs. no alcohol. no desserts.
abstain for 1 wk, happiness for 3 mths.

*****... *****..

Make Me Pure

2008-03-02T21:07:00.001+08:00

Maybe its me.

But i'm back with my elements.

Slept my day away.

First thing that popped up on radio when i turned it on.

Cool Eh?

Its funny if u can get it.

Only if the joke is not on you.

To little miss valentine

2008-03-01T23:14:00.004+08:00

Dear little miss valentine.
Like the time i blurted over the phone, and all those random times which u deem "unnecessary", I like you. I like you alot. Enough to change. But. I guess its impossible.i tried to roam around and revolve ard u, but theres still a fact. no matter what, everytime i know that i'm meeting you, i will ensure that i'll keep in mind that i'm "reserved" for you, so much that even if pep try to date me, i'll push them away..

i realli hate to tell pep to ask me another day.. i just find it sad that i just cant be there when someone asks me to or wants me to. but sometimes.. for you.. i'll just do it.. but i guess.. its all one sided?

Cold. so cold. maybe its realli one-sided and its just me. but i don care. it just hurts sometime and it hurts enough for me to just give up and implode. i'll stay away for now. and u can forget about treating me.

Everything that i've tried to do. replace u. ignore you. it all failed. maybe its just stupid of me to do that. and maybe stupid to fall for you in the first place.

I'll just stay here. Alone.
Delusions, no matter how u doubt them, still shows the desperation for hope

Mmmm Chocolates

2008-02-28T20:08:00.004+08:00

<- Shitty chocolates

Valentine chocs were pretty. but tastes like ass.

So.. i decided to using ex chocs to make nice ones.

i don realli care abt the looks this time.

Taste.. taste is the key.

new WOW chocs

no.. kelly poon is not endorsing my chocs.. but yeah.. it makes a cool coaster and background.. background.. bailey's truffle.. foreground (left) is Chivas Ganache.. and right is nice Cointreau Ganache.. and my fav Brandied cherries truffle is on the top.

My lucky friends.. tasting is in session.

Budget breakdown:

Valrhona chocs 19.95 for 500g (all gone)

President Butter 4.50 for 300g

President Whipping Cream 4.25 x 2 x 200ml

Cointreau 7.00

Chivas Regal 40.95

Brandied Cherries 10.95

Equipment

Thermometer 20.95

Enjoyable Spatula 26.35

Silpat 24.95

total expenditure on ingredients: 91.85 bucks.

total investment : 164.1 bucks.

Checkpoint

2008-02-27T18:35:00.002+08:00

Results were fine. Only A was FYP. all the time spent, anguish, stress and of all, the overtime till 1130.. its just justification.

Now.. its all over. i have given myself another challange.
Function and make good chocolates.
I have the ingredients.
Good stuff.
But damn poor.
This is my only chance.
Cant afford to practise and keep trying
Planning is now the key.
Like FYP.
It has to be good.

no mistakes.
Only 1 chance to make everything right.
and go with a Bang.

Lucky friends u know..
but i'll be happy if u guys wanna pay for them. =)

Intro The Night

2008-02-23T20:10:00.002+08:00

Like a gift from the heavens, it was easy to tell,

It was love from above, that could save me from hell,

She had fire in her soul it was easy to see, how the devil himself could be pulled out of me,

There were drums in the air as she started to dance,

Every soul in the room keeping time with their hands,

And we sang…

(Chorus)

Ay oh ay oh ay oh ay,

And the voices bang like the angels sing,

We’re singing…

Ay oh ay oh ay oh ay,

And we danced on into the night,

2nd Verse

Like a piece to the puzzle that falls into place,

You could tell how we felt from the look on our faces,

we was spinning in circles with the moon in our eyes,

No room left to move in between you and I,

We forgot where we were and we lost track of time,

And we sang to the wind as we danced through the night,

And we sang…

Think i'll just wait for that girl to save me...

An artform to die for

2008-02-16T19:50:00.002+08:00

i went for a chcoloate making class. wonderful. learnt so much.. so much new insight, inspiration.. so much joy.

Super expensive gormet chocolate that i hand made. its such a wonderful feeling.

But the down side. when i got out of the class.i crash back to reality. I called like everyone.. msged everyone. to ask out just to eat the chocs, fresh. and yeah.. each of them cost something like just below 10bucks per piece.

its a waste that theres no one to share it with me. I wont eat them all. share with my family. but i realli yearn for someone else to share them with me. more than the chocolates, the emotions.. the excitement. everything.

i spent some cash on ingredients and tools. but i guess i wont be making any for them time being. i'll only do them for important people. because i see the significance. and yeah. wont be teaching any other people too..

i'll save it all up for the special one.
and i realli hope i meet her before the chocs expire.

Rock am Ring 2007.

2008-02-15T20:53:00.003+08:00

Caught "the best of" on MTV. starving for more.. here they are.. Jared Leto and amy lee. Nice combi..

Rockstars are all nuts.
Fun to watch Nuts. =)

Seriously.. if i can get a girl like her, eyeliner.. killer lungs and all.. i'll be such a happy whimp. hahah.. i have a soft spot for girls like her =)

haha.. i stumbled on this aft that.. the 2 of them together on the same stage.. yes. amy lee is hot and jared borrowed her eye liner.. best part? the moonman for best grp video when to all american rejects. Mainstream triumphs? hahaha.such irony..

The day that godiva cannot live without

2008-02-14T22:46:00.003+08:00

Happy Valentines Day ! hahah.. ok.. i got my selfish wants.. Canele.. deadly black forest Crepe, chocolate cake and L' amore ice cream... seriously.. chef pang is god.. and the stuff that comes together is heavenly...

anyway.. i realli good things happen to those who wait... early in the morning, by early i mean like 1130, i went to get a box and extra stuff for packaging the chocs.. went out in my black topman shirt.. all black.. just felt weird.. came back.. without lunch.. and started hell-gate-ing.. after 3 shirt changes, then i finally decided to wear my new crumpled white shirt.. just for conversation sake.. haH.. wHy U NeVer IrOn? hahah

went to a paper shop for the first time in my life. Prints seems so relac.. hahah.. theres so many things to decide which shade or type of white paper to get.. thickness.. feel.. and.. for the first time.. i thought that i'm realli not that picky.. and i realli will have problems deciding which to get.. hahah.. prints will do for me.. despite the obvious mark up of prices, but its fine with me.. hahah..

sometimes being that quiet is not a bad thing.. its not that i'm bored la.. just that i warm up to people slow. hahaha.. but yeah.. new friends are cool.. i esp like straightforward people.. just fun to watch.. hahah.. unrelentless tackling of others.. but.. how nice would i be direct and just be urself.. and enjoy the expressions on others. =)

New company is fun. enlightening experience. Happy valentines day afterall.. =)

anyway.. i got the king of Hearts.. like on valentines day.. what a pun? hahaha

p.s to protect the identity and add a tinge of mystery.. a wee bit of photoshop was done. =)

<- Black forest crepe from canele. To die for =)

Complex stuff.

2008-02-13T00:05:00.000+08:00

Ok. its valentines. I'm making chocolates, teaching hx and her sis how to make chocs.
Made some.
Gave to shiying.
maybe make her happy.
I have demand.
I can make people happy with nice chocolates.
I thought i can survive off other peoples' happiness.
i cant.

Why cant i just be selfish for once?
i grumble alot.
For those who try to make me happy,
i throw it back into their faces and i run.
what the hell am i doing?

count the eggs in ur basket?
or make do with what u have?
all sounds so sick..
but i don know what i want exactly.

happy valentines.
p.s. i'm such a sucker for greys.

When things don work out

2008-02-12T00:29:00.000+08:00

Deadline coming.
Need to keep the quality up too.
This time i realli need to give good stuff..
will i be able to do it?
will i have time?

Just get it out of my head and start facing reality.
Sometimes.. u can onli trust urself to get the work done.

Its just stuck in my head

2008-02-10T01:43:00.000+08:00

Somehow.. its now the new loop song in my head...

need to get the file..

Seems as though my choice is coming clearer.

Throw away the delusions..

Now. Its closer to nothing.

All but smoke.

Despair and loneliness indeed?

I'll try so hard to prove that u're wrong